How do I enjoy things again

I cannot relax anymore
Every single minute of my life I feel like I need to do something productive
Anytime I could watch a movie or play a game I cannot do it without feeling guilty
I spend all my waking hours learning, working, at the gym or practicing my hobbies.
I cannot live like this anymore it hurts so much
Its not like I dont have anything to show for it, I am in a good state for my age and for the cards I have been dealt but I just want to enjoy a movie again without guilt
help please

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Cheat day

I cant
I went on holiday for 2 weeks with this as the goal
I spent every day inside studying for my CEH

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I have been doing this exact thing basically but for way longer than 7 days and I cannot go back
Whats wrong and how do I reverse it

pretty sure you have not at all. first of all because you are on the internet right now.

I am here for help
I havent been on Zig Forums in ages and I have nobody else to ask
I use the internet daily tho to study
All my courses are online due to corona

Dude, first of all realise that you have a very enviable problem. In your case, maybe make 2 hours of idleness a day mandatory or something. Treat it like you do every other part of your routine - because from the sounds of it you absolutely need to fix this. Your doctor is prescribing anime and vidya for the purpose of giving your brain a break and allowing it to digest everything you learn each day.

i just cant
i dont know how to explain it
if i dont hit my targets for the day i cant sleep
it hurts somehow
i know its not physical pain just something in my brain but it hurts I can feel it

Smoke a joint and chill out bro, you seem stressed. Also, I’d love to subscribe to your newsletter