I'm out of patience with the world. I sat through a zoom meeting for a study group today and it devolved into a discussion about how miserable isolation is. "Oh my god I haven't had sex in two months!" "Oh my god I miss parties" "Oh my god when am I going to get to drink with my friends again"
Meanwhile isolation has been hell for me as my mother is forcing me to help her clean out the house. This has resulted in me having to sort through piles upon piles of possessions, photos, record, etc of my father. My father who raped me four times, who impregnated me then carried out an abortion on me himself. I've been having nightmares every night. I'm having panic attacks. I'm starting to see his face in everything. It much be awful not getting to find a new lay every weekend.
My mother was a drug addict, he enabled her. When he basically had her in stasis because she was so high so often he did whatever he wanted. That resulted in him forcibly raping me four times.
Jaxon Wright
I've been in therapy. Actually I was visiting someone near campus very often. I haven't had the opportunity to since I've been home.
Jordan Barnes
Vagina is vagina and some times you gotta come real quick
Jordan Sanders
That's been my reaction too, OP. Talking to some normalfags made me realize just how out of my element I am. The dearth between me and them is huge. I can hardly connect to anything they say. They start babbling about festivals and drinking with friends and I just lose interest. I'd imagine it's the same for you. Solitude ain't no damper on my freedom.
>My father who raped me four times, who impregnated me then carried out an abortion on me himself. Based. You should have dated him.
Leo Brooks
Exactly. If I wasn't being forced into such an uncomfortable situation then I would be perfectly fine. I don't go to festivals. I don't party. I don't think any of that is relevant to how happy you can be. There are so many more important things.
Brayden Ward
Well are you really forced? Could always plan on leaving unless youre NEET
Oliver Barnes
Agreed, but it's a shame your situation is such shit. It feels like this time should be used for rest. I know it probably rings hollow, but I empathize. I don't do much of that stuff either. I'm fine as a conversationalist and a great listener but I get picky with the company I keep. Plus I fucking despise crowds. My square peg don't fit at all, man. So don't feel too alone. I've noticed the disconnect with myself too.
Anthony Rodriguez
sorry OP i feel similar shit, but obvi not like you there are plenty of people who live in isolation normally that you aren't hearing from
Landon Howard
By the way, if you need someone to talk about your dad with, here's my discord. I'm close to someone who went through something similar, maybe I could help.
I'm a college student, I can't just leave. I don't have the resources to just go. It's really expensive to move out.
Sometimes I wonder that if I got to grow up normally then I would understand them. Maybe I would be like them, but I don't think I would. They all just seem so vapid and empty. Like they do all these stupid things and chase after pleasure because they don't have any fulfillment.
I sure hope so. Unfortunately they're typically not the kind of people to connect for things like studying. I'm almost done with the semester though, I guess it's not all bad.
I might send you a message. I'm not sure.
Eli Allen
hahahahahaha. Lol, dude. Nice fucking larp.
Jack Roberts
>Sometimes I wonder that if I got to grow up normally then I would understand them. Maybe I would be like them, but I don't think I would. They all just seem so vapid and empty. Like they do all these stupid things and chase after pleasure because they don't have any fulfillment. You may not be too far from the truth on that, but I can't fault anyone for seeking pleasure. I have one hell of a hedonistic streak myself. The main thing is just sometimes people are fundamentally different. I've had people like me that I couldn't stand just because we had no common ground. There's just some lifestyles that I actively shy away from. They have their side of the fence, I got mine, y'know? >I might send you a message. I'm not sure. Whatever works for you.
Sebastian Rodriguez
Yeah, this is obviously some sort of rape fetish larp. Cmon.
Jackson Roberts
Oh man. I'm thinking this is pretty based AND original.
Even with all this baggage she would still be too good for me...
Liam Rogers
Honestly my only standards are don't disgust me, make me feel safe, and have something going for you. I think that if I was able to become a college student after the cards I was dealt I should be able to consider at least some form of a future a necessity for a partner.
Jeremiah Miller
>Complaining about other people complaining about their lives >Proceeds to complain about her own life
Christopher Wilson
I am a very boring person I suppose. everybody ghosts me always I am in college rn though.
I'm not interested in your contact info nor do I think you would have given it.
Im too used to bring ghosted. And it's not just they don't respond it's I send multiple messages days apart that don't get responses.
i have a hard time sympathizing with women when it comes to hating life and general feelings of depression, everything about their lives just looks so much better
my parents just guilted me into giving them a huge portion of my savings for living expenses during this corona shit, i'm a utility to everything and everyone and when i meet someone new i just start counting the days before they use me and toss me aside.
John Jenkins
Does anyone else find it funny that this post wasn't deleted? Do people just like this picture more or something?
Jeremiah Howard
The irony. It appears I spoke too soon.
Matthew Mitchell
I'm curious what sort of "fulfillment" do you expect to have in life?
Ian Thompson
>post anything >coombrains and incels ruin it all
Logan Barnes
Sounds rough. Are you coping alright?
Luke Adams
I hope it gets better, I'm sorry but don't hold a grudge with people that maybe don't know the details of your story. You don't win anything with that you know.
