>be me >always angry >secretly insecure but pretend I'm some bigshot wiz >wake up one day >go around my daily routine being a dick to people in real life calling them names, just in general being rude >go home after a long day of making everybody around me feel like crap >get on Zig Forums, do the same things >start an argument i'm confident i win, start calling other person rude names >i lose the argument >i look beyond stupid >other anons chime in, start making fun of me, calling me retard and such >i feel really down >mfw i realize this is what I have been to others my entire life
I don't want to be a retard pseudo-intellectual who makes others feel bad. I don't want to always be angry. I just want to be that genuinely nice person who makes your stomach all nice and warm and fuzzy when you speak to them. Maybe I can become nice enough to make some friends? Why am I so disagreeable to be around? Even on a fucking anonymous image posting board I still am always the nuisance. I'm tired. I want to give up. I'd rather be a ghost then the person I am today; at least ghosts don't hurt other people's feelings.
As in talk more in general or explain my situation further?
Isaac Williams
well lets start with the situation
Nicholas Lopez
What more do ya need to know? I try to control my urges to be an ass, but I can't help myself. I go to bed telling myself I'll be a new person in the morning; and I wake up being the same person I was the night before. I had a loner childhood because of how I acted to others. I was and still am an attention seeker. I'm always angry. Always cursing somebody if not to their face then under my breath. I just want to be a nice person, someone who can be called a friend.
Ethan Clark
Excess aggression and nowhere to put it in this feminised world we live in. Many such cases. youtube.com/watch?v=iYgPznBrjiA
Jose Parker
well you didn't called me any rude names so you can control for a start also user tell me are you very biter about something?
Robert Brooks
i suggest start a martial art boxxing,mma,or crav manga should do the trick,for that
Xavier Edwards
This is the beginning of some good character development. You have to be more open minded tho and stop being such a stubborn retard.,
I don't think it is attention you seek. I think you have been surrounded by humans of lesser intellect and are bored of playing games with their minds. You need a higher stimulation than what they provide, perhaps. NPCs fill the void with their obsessions, but seem to have goldfish brains thinking they can devote their whole life to one singular purpose. We live in a new age of enlightenment; education is equalizing our universe. People have been gatekeeping information for the history of mankind. The world is waking up to possibility, thanks to the internet. Just wait, user. The world will open up eventually. These sheep are going to be supporting us future kings in no time
Carson Howard
But I don't wanna get beatup myself
Kevin Thompson
>mfw i realize this is what I have been to others my entire life and why would that matter?
Ryan Clark
As for bitter, I feel as though not fitting in easily and watching others make connections like's it's nothing makes me angry. I'd also say I'm bitter at those more fortunate than me in terms of wealth and upbringing. I'm bitter at my family for not attempting to reach out. I'm bitter at circumstances out of my control. It's not a stretch to say I'm bitter at the world.
Josiah Wright
most likely you wont you will sart with the basics once you would be in a somewhat beter condition you may fight and even then the worse you will get is some kicks and punches nothing too serious since most likely wont go pro
Kayden Thomas
so then start putting in effort to make changes in your life that allow you to be more like these people you supposedly envy and in general get more out of life. if you actually commit to something like that you'd become less bitter over time because you'd mostly have what you want out of life
either that or stay mad
Tyler Taylor
like most of us here you are bitter at the world (im too) the think is by being an asshole doesn't chance anything in the contrary it makes thinks worse plus you feel like shit when the ego tripping stops
Jayden Ramirez
>Plus you feel like shit when the ego tripping stops yep, that's why I'm here :( It really is the worst feeling Okay I'll try. Learning how to be socially adept by myself is not easy but I'll give it a shot
Luis Barnes
user tell me what do you do all day? Also how sociable are you in real life?
Evan Jenkins
Am a college student so when I'm not studying it's either playing games or browsing the internet, not much different from alot of other robots here. I wouldn't call myself a complete loner, but my social life is pretty barren. The few friends I had lost contact after high school and now all I can say I have are acquaintances from study groups and such. Even those people seem like they'd rather not be around me.
Cameron Allen
Firstly try to contact your high school friends again trust me speaking with people you have a bond with helps to ease the stress on the mind try to speak more to your fellow classmates (tip speak about general stupid normie shit they will most likely respond) Have an extra school activity like going to gym or a martial group or whatever as long it is physical and talk to other people (tip ask them to teach you the ropes most people will respond and you will be able to have a discussion)
Jayden Bennett
also i would suggest doing some exercises at home it helps to vent
Julian Anderson
I'll give it a try but at this point I have a feeling most of them have branched off. Can't hurt to try though. I was thinking of joining a gym to gain a little more self confidence and maybe a few buddies while I'm at it.
Xavier Perry
trust me user people even if they branced off still they would want to talk with you actually i suggest talking with them today
i know your shy user but do it you dont really lose anything especially with friends
Jeremiah Foster
Are you a narcissist child molester?
Carson Gutierrez
>narcissist yes > child molester no
Joshua Carter
Anger is the top symptom of childhood sexual abuse
Mason Cooper
Was never abused sexually but I did get verbally abused by my parents and schoolmates as a young kid. Not sure if that contributed to my bitterness and anger.
Austin Clark
Help people, even if its stupid little shit. I work in construction, with a lot of dudes with busy lives, so I help them save time by moving stuff, and honestly just being available to help out. In my opinion, the folks of r9k could be some of the most helpful people on the planet if they could just find people to help.
