What is it about this drug ?
I really don't even get it myself. I'm 28 years old, and basically wrecked my life due in large part, or at least consequences of ingesting it. I have 4 DUI charges, spent time on house arrest, lost jobs, am over 50k in debt due to car crashes and debt etc. I live with my parents ffs. I drink to blackout every night, and nobody even knows. Somehow I hold down a job, that involves heavy machinery, forklifts, stockpickers etc, even though I must turn up to work over the limit every morning, there's no way my body can process it all in that time.
I just don't get it. I've have unironically tried over like 40 drugs. But at the end of the day, nothing is really there for me, nothing has my back at the end of the day, or in hard times like the ethanol does. It's like it's my girlfriend, for real.
I know I need to stop because I'm going into a early grave, or just downright going to neck myself, but the alternative is blinding sobriety and I can't take it.
Anyone have any advice?