>your country >your story/background and how you ended up giving up on life
Anyone from other countries just completely lost all aspirations in life?
I live in the shittiest most third world state in America (New Mexico). When I was a teenager I fantasized about leaving this shithole when I turned 18 but I am now 21 and have accepted that I am gonna die here.
I also self improved, got Zig Forums, and tried hard as fuck to get a gf. I'm above average height and relatively handsome, I could get girls to talk to me, but once they started talking to me they could just detect something was wrong with me. I think they could just feel that I was a fucking autist, broken from a lonely youth, whatever.
I wanted to be a lawyer more than anything too, but I ended up dropping out because I hated every second of college.
This week I can say that there is absolutely not even one drop of hope left in my body for a future. In the back of the head I thought maybe I would find a girl who matched my personality, I thought I'd just go back to school and be fine, I thought I'd find a way out of this city.
Now I have fully accepted my reality. I will NEVER find a girl that is compatible with my autism. I will NEVER make it out of this state. I will NEVER make something of myself. I have ZERO hope anymore, I've accepted all these things 100%.
It's refreshing in a way.
I was just wondering if there's any anons here from other countries who are in my position, and if so, how'd you end up here? What's your story?
It took Andy Dufresne 19 years to escape prison. It'll probably take you less.
Justin Robinson
Yes, I'm unironic shut-in dropout NEET. Don't have the discipline to change anything about my life, just leeching on gibs and staying indoors, no social contacts.
I gave up long ago. I'm just born subhuman and this is my lot in life, no point complaining. I could be decently apathetic and content if it wasn't my mental health getting worse from continued isolation, I have constant paranoia. I don't know if I'm happy to live in country with autismbucks or not, maybe I would be on the streets without them or maybe it would force me to change and better my life.
Uhhh dog I’m in a pretty similar situation but no reason to “give up.” Seriously, if you just try to do anything, it is better than giving up.
Isaiah Foster
I'm 40 and back in undergrad. Your argument is invalid.
I get it though.
Camden Gutierrez
The state motto is "Land of Enchantment" but the locals here call it the "Land of Entrapment".
Something about this state just pulls you in. Once you come here, you can never leave. I don't know why. All people I talk to agree with me on this. Pic related, the White Sands.
What should I do?
What's it like being old enough to be most of your peers' father?
My story is boring, just a loser with no prospects stuck in a small town with no jobs. But I have a bag of pure sodium nitrite in the closet just behind me and this could my ticket out of this hell.
Juan Nguyen
>What's it like being old enough to be most of your peers' father? Probably weirder for them than me lol. There are more older students in my classes than I expected but we're definitely the minority.
Parker Rivera
Wtf! I'm turning 22 and I'm from New Mexico, as well. I grew up In Las Cruces but I currently live in Maryland. Honestly dude, what really helps me keep going is the fact that I still find things to enjoy. Those things include, eating, gaming, watching movies and tv shows, masturbating, etc. You can feel down for being a failure but don't ever give up because there are still things still living for. I do the bare minimum to scrape by but I'm okay with it because I've been lazy my whole life. I've just learnt to accept it and enjoy the pleasures of life. Good luck, man.
Jason Ross
I'd probably just kill myself if I had to live in Brazil (although America will be Brazil soon anyway I guess).
Even if you're Brazilian, say you work hard to emigrate to Europe or something - then what? You'd probably be living in a shitty ghetto with the arabs/somalis and always be seen as a retarded foreigner with a gay accent. I realized that when I wanted to emigrate to a different country a while ago.
It's all just pointless
Liam Thomas
>I live in the shittiest most third world state in America (New Mexico) Weird way to spell Mississippi
Jordan Rivera
I hate this state so much. I hate the weather, I hate the people, I just hate everything about this shithole.
This year I've had my cars window smashed open and my shit stolen, TWICE. Also I had some retard bump into my car from the back last year and take me to court over it because he wanted my money lmao, there was almost no damage to his car.
The kicker? He couldn't even speak English, lmfao. He only spoke Spanish and had to have his fat wife translate everything.
Fuck Albuquerque, fuck this state, fuck the mexicans and goddamn retards who can't even speak english, fuck this country.
Mississippi is a perfectly fine state, they just have a shit ton of black people living there in their shitty ghettos dragging the average down. White people there live just as well as they do anywhere else
just keep on living to see how the world will turn up to be
Josiah Sanchez
I'm 27 and I've never had any dreams. I've never wanted anything beyond fulfilling the most basic physical needs. Never even tried talking to a girl. I had some friends as a kid the way everyone does but they drifted away and I never made any new ones. It's probably not that I gave up in childhood or something and more of me just being that way, but I've learnt to accept it. My mom hasn't, and that's really the only part that still bugs me.
Xavier Cruz
i don't even have the desire to write down it in english
hope you guys be ok and go look for other experiences, not everything is a job and a girl
I unironically miss New Mexico's weather. I really took the sunshine for granted when I lived there. You're in the ABQ area, right? I'd recommend moving out to the suburbs near the mountain or moving to a smaller town, like Los Alamos. Albuquerque is pretty shit, honestly
Luke Cooper
you can not give up completely cause you're delusional. You will always be hoping for the things to back together somehow in your darkest desire, unless you completely off yourself. So just keep on living even with your fake thought of giving up on everything.
Elijah Collins
I'm 20 and had very mentally unstable parents and lived in an isolated area. Never had any friends or relationships, I can barely speak properly, incredibly shy. I've been depressed as long as I remember and despite seeking professional help I could never escape it. I feel so incompetent and that I missed out on so much in my life and things are just going to get worse as I get older. Now that I've dropped out of college I don't see any reason not to kill myself.
Carson Parker
This
Bentley Peterson
All of this sounds like me in a few years
Henry Hall
>18 >crippling autism prevents me from making friends >only friends I had just used me for shit >used to be extremely fat >lost a bunch of weight, now have disgusting stretch marks all over my back and abdomen It could be way worse I know, but I want to be a primadonna
Noah Rogers
Yes, ABQ, and I hate it. All the places I want to move to that aren't shitholes full of illegals cost far too much money.
That's America, huh? If you're normal you live in a shitty brown crime-filled ghetto and if you're wealthy you get to live in a gated suburb with the white people.
I'm 24 and I've had multiple relationships that ended because I'm a nutcase. Its gotta be some type of autism because I just feel removed from everyone else. Maybe I'm not cut out for relationships. I want to travel and have a list of places I want to see before I die but I think I'll kill myself at 30. Texas here. yeehaw.
The weird thing is I can talk and make friends just fine but my autism slowly stops me from passing as normal. I’m a shut-in as of now, haven’t talked to anyone outside of family or shaved in months. I also never learned how to really dress myself, when I was in high school I just wore a jacket and jeans, nowadays I don’t give a shit I mostly wear plain stained white shirts and shorts-sweats-pants based on how warm it is. I never developed a taste in music like my peers, I listen to the same artist for years at a time where most my age can list hundreds. I never use Spotify or anything like that, I download the songs I want to use to my phone or have YouTube open. When I had a job my coworker asked me what I liked to do for fun, I thought for a long time and ended up changing the subject. I learn languages, I indulge in whatever rabbit hole Zig Forums or YouTube send me down, and I satisfy my addictions to porn and drugs.
Julian Gutierrez
I'm the same way in regards to making friends. At first I hide myself as much as possible so I appear normal but I get closer to people and accidentally reveal my autism. Then I have to make new friends. Honestly at this point i feel that there is no point.
Charles Martinez
Same. People will start talking with me and being my friend, but eventually they'll realize I'm an autist and stop talking to me.
>I've had multiple relationships that ended because I'm a nutcase. Its gotta be some type of autism because I just feel removed from everyone else. Maybe I'm not cut out for relationships Exact same here. Women can just tell I'm a weirdo. I swear they have a sixth sense that detects autism or something.
>inb4 "it's cause you're ugly bro!" No. I can easily get girls to go on a first date with me. I'm above average height and have a good face. But once they start talking to me they instantly get turned off.
I'm just not compatible with anyone. My last relationship lasted less than 2 months.
I hate doing shit that girls like doing. I hate watching fucking awful shitty netflix shows that they love. I hate going "out" - my ideal night is just staying inside, cooking together, turning the air conditioning low so that we get cold and cuddle with each other to feel warmer. The most I'll tolerate is going on a hike or going out to a restaurant alone together.
I hate how dramatic women are about everything and how seriously they take life. I seriously don't know what the fuck most women are expecting out of life...they think life is a movie or fairy tale or something. They can't just fucking chill out.
I can't stand women. But it's nights like this that I get really lonely. I miss cuddling, I miss running my hands through their hair, I miss having a soft, warm person to feel and talk to, even if it's like talking to a child.
I haven't given up, but man, constantly trying for the last 10 years and achieving no positive results really fucks with you. My heart has become tired and cynical. I have become old. Then people talk like "keep going my dude, 3 months ago I was in a really bad place for 2 weeks and lost all of my hope, but now I have a job, a gf, my own house, my own car, a dog, fulfilling career and we have a child on the way" these people are in reality very cruel, don't really care about others and just want to give themselves a pat on the back
William Wilson
just pretend real life is Minecraft
Nicholas Clark
>my last relationship > I miss cuddling, I miss running my hands through their hair, I miss having a soft, warm person to feel and talk to kill yourself you normie scum I knew you were only here to betray us
Nicholas Smith
>When I had a job my coworker asked me what I liked to do for fun, I thought for a long time and ended up changing the subject. >People will start talking with me and being my friend, but eventually they'll realize I'm an autist and stop talking to me.
My brothers.
Jackson Brown
I'm the most autistic person on this entire website. I just get carried by my looks.
