What broke in your life?

Controller, it was definitely a pain in the ass, pretty fun though

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I had (your IQ drops as you age) a genius level IQ and instead played sports and had fun and skipped class all the time to take road trips and date girls but got away with it thanks to being on the varsity football team. Now I’m in a PhD program.

But I can’t really go up stairs that well, I had hip surgery earlier this year, I finally got my broken nose fixed and have learned that the world smells like shit and allergies are a thing and food tastes funny, I had a chunk of my intestines removed and have diarrhea every day as a result, I’m single because my high school sweetheart was the love of my life and I was too young and dumb to realize it and all the women I meet I wouldn’t fuck with a rented dick, and I just sit at my desk all the time and work with brief adventures to the bar where I do nothing but get drunk and complain with the other regulars about how busy we are and how much life sucks.

I guess the moral of the story is to try drinking more.

My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer even though he had his yearly physical because the doctors kinda sucked. He then killed himself because he didn't want to put a financial strain on my family.

user, even if you were accelerated in school, it wouldn't have made a difference

My financials.

Your dad was a brave son of a bitch, respect.

it's like they wanted to make "bullshit" the game.
>no i frames after hit stun so you can literally just get looped to death because the knockback always sends you into another enemy or environmental hazard
>your character gets tired after 2 attacks and each subsequent attack makes you more tired unless you let it cool down
>you lose health each level you beat
>literally like 15 enemies on screen sometimes

My relationships with women, I cannot seem to let them continue past the 1-year or "I love you" mark, whichever comes first, I begin to sabotage it. I've never been broken up with, always choosing to end i t first.

I blame it on my mother leaving when I was a small child

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He was that kid who believed his parents when they told him the other kids only bullied him because they were jealous of how smart he was.

Don't tell me I was born free
That joke has been old since high school
You'll only find the wrong job for me
Much as I'm looking like the right tool

I never wanted to grow up to be
Some kind of social construct, imagine me
A cog in some kind of infernal machine
And yet a bounty of beautiful boxes awaits
Forever flashing on that screen
So please, don't tell me I was born free

You're gonna get your change to be hung
You'll make a great gift to gracious girls
Try to swallow while you're still young
That your dick's too short to fuck the world

What you know about being no sort of slave?
I know some kids who'd kill for this kind of cage
But I never want to act my age
I'm a born again babe with a vague rage
Mewling and puking upon that page, okay?
So don't ever get in my way

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You're just a spaz, user. Nothing would've changed the fact that you're an antisocial retard

Yeah, I asked him if there was anything he wanted me to do after he dies and he was just like "Be good." so I've had to stop being a dick and to be completely fucking honest it's pretty hard being nice. But people like me more now. I get worried I'm not being enough of a good person sometimes, but people tell me otherwise. I think that's how life is for a lot of people who don't like to talk about things, though. Knowing shit like that and getting your ass kicked by life makes trying to be good a little bit easier.

>I guess the moral of the story is to try drinking more.
I drink to make myself retarded so that I can interact with other people on a level that they can relate to. So you might be onto something.

Here's hoping that things get better, I guess.

Research shows it makes a huge difference. There's a massive longitudinal study out of Australia about it.

How did he deck himself?

I started out in special Ed at school, they put me in there because there was something visibly wrong with me but I was never diagnosed. I had issues socializing, paying attention, anger, I would attack other kids regularly, I don't know how I didn't get expelled.

I eventually started feeling guilty about everything and slowly changed, things were normal for a bit after that until the end of middle school where I alienated my friends and family and became a mute. I wouldn't talk to my teacher or classmates, I would just fail projects because I was deathly afraid of talking, no one did anything. At my worst point I didn't even talk to my family.

Starting high school I was talking again but had the reputation of being the nutcase. I had no friends and was constantly being fucked with.

Went to college and dropped out, tried to kill myself but pussied out, now I am just going through the motions.

If you're so smart how come your life is still fucked?
Huh? Huh?

did she get raped in college and had a mental breakdown?

I've never been very sociable and at some point people just left me behind and I could never catch up.
I'm close to graduating college, after I have a job I'll try to find a way to meet more people. That's my greatest problem right now, I'm lonely and its never been any different.

You sound like an autistic retard that needed to go to special school

I don't know.

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He drowned and made it look like an accident so we wouldn't get fucked and lose his pension. I had to ask him not to make it messy since my mom told me she thought he was going to try and kill himself. After he told me how much he was suffering and how there wasn't anything I could do to help, I told him I loved him and asked him to think of my mom and to make it as unhorrific as possible because if she came home to his head being blown out she'd most likely kill herself too and I'd be completely alone. As soon as I got back home from visiting for the last time, my mom called me and told me she couldn't find my dad.

Probably a shakeup between:
>Being molested at 5
>Being physically abused by my school's head teacher at 8, and then routinely punished disproportionately thereafter
>Being attacked by gangs of people several times between 8 and 11
>Emotionally distant parents that gave up on me at 6 or so years ago
>Having to leave home at 14 to live with another relative because I had a breakdown; I was working 2 jobs to buy food/clothes, and was being woken up at anti-social hours
>Losing all of my friends when I got outed as gay
I tried to kill myself the other day. Didn't have the balls to step off the cliff.

Your dad sounded like a decent guy, RIP

>Molested while young
>is gay
really makes me think

crippling anxiety to the point that leaving the house was fucking exhausting and constant emotional stress and I've been unable to make friends since high school, if i wasn't on medication i would have an heroed a long time ago, still think about it honestly

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He is, he left the pension in my name so it would last longer in case anything happened to my mom. I've been giving her 100% of the money from it because let's be real here, its hers. I didn't have to fuck my dad and raise the little shit that I was. He never raised his voice or anything, was always the more chill and stable parent. Would always go on field trips with my class, that sort of thing. I miss him a lot, I want to be that cool one day.

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>have diarrhea every day
I just had about 3 days straight of diarrhea the other week and I thought I was turning into one of those pathetic white people who can't handle taco bell. This thread is too real for me, I must leave.

Pedos deserve the rope, I hope things improve for you

>Emotionally distant parents that gave up on me at 6 or so years ago
should read
>Emotionally distant parents that gave up on me at 6 or so years old

Wasn't this the game where the developer murdered his friend because Zoe Quinn told him to or something?

>He then killed himself because he didn't want to put a financial strain on my family

As callous as it sounds, that is a hundred times better than having family who leech off of each other so that no one can get out poverty. My father is a pill addict, SSI, and refuses to stop smoking a bag of weed every day, quit cigarettes, quit pills, so that I dont have to pay all his bills.

I'm 36 and my income isn't enough to support both of us apart, just both of us together. I've never lived alone my entire life.

I kinda just want to kill myself just so that he'll die - but hes a survivor, he'll find someone else to leech off of.

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>>Losing all of my friends when I got outed as gay
You didn't lose me.

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The pudding machine

>says he has a genius IQ
>is totally unable to communicate
>is unable or too lazy to get a career. Instead wastes time playing video games and releasing dopamine
>blames others for his problems
>bitter and jealous at those who are in a better situation than he is.

You my autistic friend are far from a genius. If this isn't a bait post and you are being genuine I would be convinced you have some type of disability.

I'd also like to iterate that just because you have a large vocabulary and lord on normies doesn't make you smart it only makes you a cunt

Also IQ tests are a joke and the only true test of intelligence is by showing an aptitude in real world skills.

I'd rather be friends with a carpenter than a scientist

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He has no legal right to your property. You can evict him if you want.

>I don't want to evict my dad
Killing yourself is a better option?

Alec Hollowka, the guy who composed the soundtrack and did some of the coding killed himself after he was accused by Zoe Quinn of sexual abuse, people close to him stepped forward after the accusation was made confirming that his behaviour in the past was sketchy.

>You didn't lose me.
Thanks. I think the two things that hit me hardest were when people started discussing if it was ok to still be my friend, and then my best friend at the time decided it wasn't, and 'replaced me' with an online friend he'd known for 2 months. I guess 3 years meant jack shit. He had nobody to talk to at school after that. I guess he'd rather have been alone than near me.

>I had a chunk of my intestines removed

explain... i have unexplaind pain around my belly button and fucking doctors are doing nothing, im scared

I just don't really care anymore. There are lots of things that I find interesting, but nothing I really care about or want to devote my life to. I try to stay positive but it doesn't work.

>Five guys tried to #metoo music guy
>Immediately thrown under the bus by every left leaning retard in the "indie community" (he was one of them too by the way)
>Kills himself
>Sister apologizes to Zoe

why are you gay then

Could never find a reason to care
Video games are pretty cool though

I was born a dumb gay retard.

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>WAAAAAA POOR ME POOR ME ALL MY PROBLEMS ARE THE RESULT OF THOSE EVIL SCHOOL STAFF NOT ACCELERATING ME BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T RECOGNISE MY GENIUS
Hang yourself.

and he didn't even rape anyone, ever. It was all lies. He never hurt a soul. Just trust me bro

I know I was lucky in the grand scheme, but it was just hard since this was all within a month. He found out he had stage 4, I got a call from my mom telling me to visit and that something was wrong, and suddenly he's gone. There wasn't much time to accept what was going on, it was so fast. My mom was crying and telling me how skinny he looks because he wasnt eating but when I went to see him he looked like my same old dad who would give me a ride to my best friend's house when I was little. I don't know if it was mental or not but I really didn't see anything wrong with him physically. He looked completely normal.

I was very lucky to have him be as supportive as he was, user. I'm sorry yours is blind to your love and financial support. If I was in your shoes, I have no doubt I'd be thinking the same thing. This is going to sound dumb, but have you ever thought of just running away? Like, pack up your shit and find a new city and just do your own thing? Would the rest of your senpai judge you? Telling your dad you're leaving would suck, but at least it might change the dynamic.

VIDYA POO POO AND PEE PEE GO GO GO!

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What are your poops like? I'm not that user but in going for a colonoscopy on the 12th. Doctors are certain its nothing because my symptoms have subsided but they just want to be sure?

Is the pain constant?
Is your poop loose?
Is there blood or mucus?

Just demand a referral my man or lie and say you are shitting dark red blood

>He had nobody to talk to at school after that. I guess he'd rather have been alone than near me.
You sound like a gossipy, bitter little faggot. I bet they were all glad to be rid of you.

Imagine locking a normal child in a room with non-verbal retards every day for 12 years.

>flex about IQ on anonymous imageboard
>whine about social failures
Not gonna make it and/or not a genius.

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>little joy in life.
>spent most of my time indoors as a kid
>had a few friends who went outside. really enjoyed it.
>parents would never buy outdoors clothes or a bike for me
>mocked me for wanting to get a paper round, So I didn't.
>stayed out of sight for 10 years.
>couldn't relate to anyone. Most kids were afraid of me for being weird and broody. Jokes about school shooter, etc.
>now finally able to act independently.
>still live with parents.
>just want to go outdoors, hike and camp, bask in the beauty of nature.
>get told it's stupid. So, I don't do it.

Innocent until proven guilty. Also the way those things are handled in civilized society is through the judicial system, not mobbing through social media.
However I don't particularly care about him because he was one of them, he instigated the same kind of shit in the past.

>I bet they were all glad to be rid of you.
Probably.

>act like a retard
>get put in the retard class
You have autism. You can barely speak. You might not realise it, but it's really difficult to interact with you because of the noises you make and the weird physical stuff.

Lost one of my best friends to suicide, within the same week that I found out that my grandfather had stage 3 lung cancer, dying shortly after. coped by using ssris, spending the next few months contemplating suicide. met an incredibly mentally damaged girl that convinced me that i was broken and needed her love to fix it. after months of emotional torture, her suicide baiting me, yet constantly making me feel i was not enough, left me feeling emotionally unavailable and numb, coping again with benzos and alcohol at this time. i apologize to my friends and people that i've given nothing but a hard time to, especially in that time i would black out nearly every time i'd drink with friends.

The internet.

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Its incredibly complicated man. I got conditioned by my parents since youth to not be independent - if I got an attitude or raised my voice, I got yelled at or beaten. It gave me lots of social anxiety issues because of it. As irrational as it sounds, I get afraid of making my father mad, even though at this point I could probably kill him with my bare hands.

My mother died, and when she did I had already cut her out of my life and I feel guilty because of that. And its not like my father doesn't care about me, he just cares about his addictions more. I couldn't take the guilt, unless I was in a rage, of either moving out or booting him out, and having him suffer the consequences.

I never felt as if any of my family ever loved or were proud of me, so its the barrel of gun - I can free myself and be happier while never being able to get what I want - or I can hope for what I want while living confined and dying slowly.

Honestly, its better just to kill myself and not worry which is the better choice.

>his is going to sound dumb, but have you ever thought of just running away? Like, pack up your shit and find a new city and just do your own thing? Would the rest of your senpai judge you? Telling your dad you're leaving would suck, but at least it might change the dynamic.

I think about ti every day. Im kinda waiting until point of no return, where im so fucking mad that i dont care if he lives or dies. I get like that sometimes. I had planned on starting training for a career this year that was going to really help with the choice...

BUT THE FUCKING CHINKS JUST HAD TO EAT BATS FUCK

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just pain, my shits are kinda ok and i already did a test to see if there is blood in my shit and it negative

i think its galstones or pancreas related or i have an ulcer

developed anorexia in sophomore year of high school and i haven't been happy since then! :)

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It hurts to realise that there are people who will reject you so fundamentally for such a trivial reason, but that's the world we live in. I'm just grateful that it isn't everyone.

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Do not kill yourself, my American brother. Turn to the Lord, ask for his guidance. Through his love and great works you will find your true path in life.

literally just eat, faggot. if you're self-diagnosing then you obviously don't actually have it.

The problem with geniuses is that they're too high on their horse to see the life skills they should be learning right below them. Being smart doesn't do you any good in life if you lack social skills.

Do you think Mae and Gregg ever fucked for fun?

>flex about IQ

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gregg is gay

>IT'S DADDY'S FAULT!!!! HE USED TO YELL AT ME!!!!
so many limp-wristed sadsack faggots in this thread.