Self-criticism is healthy and productive. Good comes from it so long as you apply it. Self-loathing is unproductive and destructive. Nothing good comes of it, and it is applied as soon as you think it. Do not confuse one for the other.
How can one possibly ignore constant new evidence that they're utterly worthless?
But the more you take, the faster will you need to pay for it yourself.
There's no point in trying now. Every time I'd speak to another person, my self-esteem would go down. It's nearly zero now.
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alcohol is shit I wouldnt pay for it
Won't your dad get mad at you for taking his beer?
only if I finish all 24 bottles on my own again
and atm 1 made me drunk already
Do you honestly believe there is no point in trying? Is that a logical conclusion, or just the productive or negative thinking? Think about it. You are only 23, purportedly, so you have a full life ahead of you still if you ever find the will to change.
Why does your self-esteem go down when you talk to others? What, specifically, is the internal mechanism which causes that feeling?
I'm jelly now. I wish I could start drinking, but that'd be highly unusual of me and I can't have any changes to my routines to keep up my larp.
Damn, jannies got a hold of you.
I don't know, man. I'm too stupid to figure this out at this point. I just want to rot. Ceb is my new role model on how life should be enjoyed. About time I stopped pretending I'm good for anything or anyone. But to answer your question, some recent interactions have left me feeling very hurt and reaffirming that even if I try my best, I can't do anything right for anyone.
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Just ignore that by being a drunk as much as you can. That's the easy way.
>Just ignore that by being a drunk as much as you can. That's the easy way.
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if I drin moar now I would just start crying again
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