Zig Forums Motivation Lounge
Or why not find an Indian women to breed with to strengthen your Indian heritage?
I want to end the culture of self hate and decay.
I plan to end it by starting with myself by reading western philosophers and learning about the history of western civilization, why it's failing, what can be done to reverse some of the damage that has already been done and try and redpill as many people as I can until the end. I plan to follow the /sig/ threads and get my shit together. I plan to learn about security and research new technologies to help build a new internet, a better internet, free from censorship.
I would have to say that sometimes I lack self determination and the ability to follow through with my goals. I end up falling back into bad habits and bad routines and end up lurking the boards and trying to keep up with happenings I know full well I can never fully keep up on. I distract myself from the larger issue and lose focus. I'm also a bit naive and fall for the shill attempts as I take things personally at times and become unhinged. Being institutionalized hasn't helped either. I'd get off the pills this time but the withdrawal made me end back up in there the last time so I figure I'll have to deal with the pharma jew for now until I can become more healthy. Screaming about corruption and (((them))) in a mental ward hasn't really been of any help unless I count the people I've redpilled on the inside. Sometimes I miss my mania but it hasn't really helped me and I'd end up doing retarded shit because I'm weak willed and let my anger control me.
This has been a mystery to me for awhile. It first was anger but I can no longer feel angry, just disappointed in how things are. These days I just try and take it one day at a time and relish in the small improvements I make as I slowly piece together my role in society at large and what I could accomplish if I had more faith in myself. I know it will all be worth it in the end if I get my act together and continue with my studies. Also directing the anger I have these days at myself for being a NEET does help. I'm already making progress in getting out of the rut I've been in for the past 3-4 years. If I can limit my time on Zig Forums more regularly and ignore the fact that it has degraded into a cesspit of glow in the dark spooks and bots maybe I can get more shit done. I mean, this place as it stands is a lot more coherent than halfchan Zig Forums I went back there recently to see how far that place has degraded in comparison and I'd rather deal with glow niggers here than a completely pozzed board where no discussion can be had.
I guess the question I have for everyone here is what makes you get up in the morning and get into a positive routine and mindset? Being a NEET has fucked up my sleep / wake routine and I end up constantly unmotivated and lazy. Sure I'll have bursts of motivations and gains here or there but I want to have consistent gains and not degenerate into a state where I end up institutionalized again. Sometimes the madness of this world makes me go insane and I end up succumbing to these emotions I once thought I never had.
Once I became institutionalized I fell into NEETdom and I spiraled deep into insanity and prescription drug abuse. I'm glad I got over the drug abuse but I've just replaced the prescription drugs with weed and coffee. I guess on a positive note it's better than alcohol. (I only drink on rare occasions)
Any help I can get will be positive help. Even if it's just ridicule and laughter at for not being the best person I can possibly be. I need to invert the negativity I have for myself into something positive.
Having a white identity.
I found that when I experienced trauma and pain my brain started to dissociate itself from who I was as if I wanted to be someone else, someplace else.
This had tremendous negative effects on my self-perception, self-determination and maintaining a healthy ego that keeps you grounded and not hyper reactive to a constantly changing environment.
I find that just looking in the mirror and accepting the fact that I'm a white man of such and such heritage, with such and such history helps me build back my white identity. An identity in race and heritage cannot be broken without your own help, only forgotten. Its static and healthy.
Everywhere you turn the kikes and their idiots are trying to destroy yours, so take time out of your day to maintain it.
My brain did that as well. (((they))) put me on anti-psychotics and SSRIs and that fucked me up and I felt dead inside to the point where I started to abuse them. Ended up being very suggestible and was doing shit I didn't want to in a drug filled mania.
How did you build up your ego? I've always been hyper reactive and that has always caused me problems. At one point I experienced what only can be described as ego-death and have been slowly trying to pick up the pieces ever since.
This is why I think schools should teach more about our history and not just (((theirs))). The whole damn system needs to be reformed. I feel saddened for the next generation as they will grow up in a pozzed society with no privacy
I'm gonna give it my best. I should really be looking after myself so I can aspire for something greater. There has to be more to life than just complaining about the rot and being suckered into their news cycle bait 24/7. They must be scared if they have to shovel propaganda into our mouths to keep us docile like a bunch of stupid nigger cattle. I'm proud of who I am god damn it. I shouldn't let them make me think otherwise. Fuck all the lies and deceit, The truth shall set us free.
You are half white which makes you no better than a pure negroid in fact it makes you worse.
You don't care about helping white people all you care is about your fetish for white girls.
Well OP , they’re on the board now because they successfully moderated and censored our ass off of their Social Media and now they are on the offensive.
However , my Butterfly account is still operational. Any anons recall the Butterfly War posting here about a year ago? I’ll remind you if you want to get your kicks in on Twatter this what I did :
Make a SJW account , fake vag + fake fag + Fake muhnority on your profile = profit
Their AI doesn’t zero in on you , I’ve posted what I want for a year and haven’t been shadowbanned or suspended. Trying to see how far I can incrementally push it before I get zapped.
The first thing I did was to physically put myself in a better environment.
Being around minorities isn't healthy. You constantly have to defend your identity or try to blend in.
Kikes are poison to be around; schemers with no morals. Sometimes worse than niggers.
Getting away from whores and women who lack any feminine qualities.
Sorounding yourself with like minded people.
Figuring out what you hate about yourself and coming to terms with it.
Pondering on your poisonous desires and finding out how self-destructive they are in reality.
Catching yourself behaving like a woman and correcting that behavior.
Coming to terms with unachievable ideals and realizing that god/mother earth has the final say and not your enemies. You are just an instrument of the greater good.
Taking small steps and calming down ideas of grandiosity.
Taking personal credit for every achievement.
Finding joy in seeing members of your community doing good.
Identifying and replacing negative and self-destructive thoughts.
Being wise and not puting your ego and identity out to be challenged to prove a point.
Experiencing a surge in energy and applying it rationally, not trying to run away from it or feeding narcistic thoughts with it.
Your post somewhat reminds me of my favorite restorative:
If—
By Rudyard Kipling
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!
("Being hated, don't give way to hating" is something I recall to myself when family or friends spew programming, because I know them to be good people at heart. I find much solace in this work.)