I'm currently attending a two year community college on my last year. I think I need to take a break from this (for maybe a year) since I am not doing very well in CALC II. I need to sort my life out as I'm planning to get a masters in physics. I'm high school I tended to take a absurd amount of AP classes and at least pretended to be a tryhard but in reality I did about as good as a really good honors student. I felt out of place in my High school years from my peers. I managed to just barely do good enough to pass the entry exams and tool a more SATs that I needed to for some odd reason. I was originally planning on going to my state university for this fall but now I am having second thoughts. Haven't really met a academic adviser for this yet. I've felt that I'm always a grade or a class below everyone in my calc classes but I'm fine with all of the math classes that I had to take due to how badly I took the entry exam. I feel that I'm wasting my life doing this but at the same time I know these classes will help me solve problems in my day to day life. The core of the problem that I have with myself at the moment is that I have not developed a good work ethic and I tend to leave things to about three days before they are due. No amount of advice will on the Internet will actually help so don't even try. I just need a year to prepare and get my act together.
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Ivy League tech programs are total fucking bullshit. This should be common knowledge. They are only "good" (for American hegemony) because they allow smart people to be in the proximity of rich kids who have access to capital.
I understand. I like to think that typing out my thoughts clearly and honestly might be a therapeutic experience but I'm always disappointed with the results tbh. While others might take sympathy I usually feel empty and even vulnerable pouring out my inner life. Honestly the only thing that makes be feel better is working. Complaining and moping is a superfluity. Ironically though I am a depressive type and I get distracted by internet forums so I find it hard to muster energy to do other shit. I wish very much to quite the Chans, honestly, but I feel like something is missing in my life because in a way the discussions I have here are more intellectually fulfilling than anything IRL besides doing my own personal reading. Anyway, I hope all goes well for you. I graduated college with good grades and if I can so can you dear user
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