1. I just finished "Stasi state or Socialist Paradise". I think it was pretty great. It's a really balanced take. Despite all the downsides I still think it showed that the DDR was way more comfy, human society than this shit. Deals with the stasi and lack of top level democracy without flinching.
2. Bush admin. Disgust with poverty. Wanting to live communally. I was essentially a left-wing anti-commmunist for the longest time. Called myself anarcho-communist, council-communist, leftcom. Never a trotskyist, doe. Now I've found a way that doesn't rely on rejecting the actual historical experiences of the movement. Mostly due to Ludo Martens, Parenti, etc.
3. Went to a "Hands of Venezuela" protest outside the US embassy this saturday.
4. I just want to finish Uni, man. I'd like to learn how to shoot, but that can be complicated and expensive where I'm from. Find myself a commie girlfriend.
5. I don't think I have anything diagnosable beyond standard alienation, loneliness (tfw when no gf) and a dash of existential dread.
6. Way too open. I don't talk about it at work though. My family is a bunch of massive fucking liberals so they think I'm "rude" or something for pointing out that America doesn't give a shit about democracy in Venezuela.
7. Everyone should read more than they are currently reading. Get fit, lift weights, take up boxing, learn to shoot, read military manuals (That's why I started the Military Manual thread), read theory, read history. Everyone, even anarchist, should be able to dispell propaganda about RES.
8. There's a great swedish 70's band, which was essentially the band of one of the alphabet soup communist parties around at the time. Knutna Nävar (Clenched Fists). It's fuggen great.
youtube.com/watch?v=9gtuACQ9RMs&list=PL02C144DFDC563902
9. I'd call myself pretty anti-sectarian, as in I'll defend most of 20th century socialism. I also find the entire notion of organisational splits over shit that happened in the thirties to be fucking retarded. I am against left-wing anti-communism, so I'll defend ML-states, though I'm not really ML (yet?).
I like planned economies, consistent anti-imperialism, worker's democracy, and daddy Cockshott.