I would like to believe that a progressive utopian esque future could be brought about, where racism isn't a serious issue, where people for the most part got along, and where each tomorrow is better than yesterday. But I can't reconcile these fantasies with reality.
Growing up I was never racist, all of my friends were non-white, but over the last few years all of them have begun to view everything through a racial lens, everything is about how whites are the problem, how white men need to be removed from positions of power and influence. The thing is, I am white, and I've always been nice to these people, I've always been there when they needed me, and yet now they view me in a negative light simply because of the color of my skin.
At the same time that all of this happening, as I slowly drifted away from longterm friends, I began to become more isolated. I'm a NEET now, and I haven't seen anyone aside from my parents for months. While I find the majority of posters on /pol/ to be distasteful, a lot of their information is objectively true. Despite having 30% Jewish DNA, I find myself sympathizing with the Nazis. I've been a vegan for the last 7 years, and was a vegetarian before that, so when I found out about all of the animal welfare laws that were passed in Nazi Germany, I opened up to learning more about them.
I suppose I'm rambling now, but I don't know what else to say, I'm depressed and while I despise conservatives, I find myself incredibly drawn to Not Socialism as it aligns with my world views. I don't want to genocide anyone, I don't hate black people, or Hispanics, or any other race, I simply no longer have any faith in multiculturalism working.
I try to browse this board every so often, but nothing on here is ever appealing to me. Is there anyone else like me out there?