I did pretty much what you did, down to a T i agree, particularly the part about not actually giving a shit about doing the hard work, basically they just want a social club (and most of them need one because normal people won't hang out with them) which is inevitably a social club for horny/actually autistic queer kids, i've nothing against them that is just invariably what it is.
however, because of this, I became a ☭TANKIE☭.. and I found… basically the same things, where the anarchists are a big gay party, ☭TANKIE☭s are the kids who got bullied in school and now want to be the bully, that or the kind of person who still gets bullied. Most ☭TANKIE☭s have not read Marx, but will call you a revisionist or whatever for any deviation from that particular groups takes. They are painfully and woefully arrogant, shitting on stupid anarchists, who are, to be fair, fucking stupid, but in its place is this other form of "holier than thou" so when you suggest any action which isn't basically "build trade unions and try to get elected" with the absolute certainty that they will fail abysmally at both and come up with mental gymnastics as to why it didn't work this time but we should continue doing the exact same shit, you are ridiculed and ostracised.
Both groups suffer hugely from a clique mentality, takes are almost uniform throughout the groups if the issues are flavour of the week.
Anarchists love doing stuff but refuse to organise doing that stuff into effective groups, ☭TANKIE☭s will do basically nothing but turn up to marches/ food drives etc other people organised, but will insist that their doing nothing is extremely organised.
When you suggest the anarchists actually do something organised you get called a ☭TANKIE☭, or some brand of privilege gets brought up, or that makes it not accessible to X social group. They will refuse to have things like basic group commitments, as that means people who have anxiety have to show up and contribute, or follow through on the shit they say they will do, for example.
when you dare critique the 4 member communist party and suggest that maybe they might not be doing things correctly given their low membership and zero sway with the working class, you will get some BS about how the conditions are not revolutionary or just autist screeching about how you are a eurocommunist or some such buzzword. They live in a world where they are the bearers of the correct theory and the working class will inevitably flock to them. They never, ever do. At least, not in the first world.
Both sides will bitch on facebook about it each other and this will literally comprise more of their time than actually organising, they all hate each other and refuse to work together because of facebook beef.
I don't know if this is common to you guys, but these are my experiences with both, I fucking hate both of them.
I'm a Maoist through and through, but god damn I hate both of them.
