I won't make this any longer than it needs to be, but I am not an adherent of this faith any longer. I will not lie, I was not the most devout, nor the strongest of faith, nor the most pious in my years as a Catholic, so this should not surprise you given those previous facts.
I'm having a difficult time putting it into words, and I want to remain as respectful as possible since I do still hold this board, and Christians, in high regard, but I suppose the best way to say this is that I simply do not feel it anymore.
To me, it all seems far too convenient to be logical, and all too comforting to be truth. I've come to understand that this world is cruel, and it simply doesn't make sense to me why that would be the case with a loving, caring God at the helm. It simply doesn't make sense for everyone to suffer due to the sins of our ancestors. It's cruelty and wrath.
I can not simply sit back and accredit every good thing that comes my way to be the work of God, while every bad thing goes unchecked (Not to say God wouldn't steer people in the right direction using methods you wouldn't immediately recognize as "Good").
It simply does not make sense.
But!
It is not all bad! At first, it was a very sorrowful time after I came to these realizations, but that does not mean that the time that I spent in faith was wasted, and I don't resent any of it. Despite my realization, it does not mean that there can not be good in the world, as Jesus, whether he be Man or Messiah, shows. Just as this world is cruel, it is also good, and seeing that not just all of the bad in this world was brought upon by men, but the good of it too is a lightening thought.
So, I suppose this is goodbye. I hope all of you be good.
P. S. I am open to discussion on this post, but if you don't want to discuss, I will leave this board as is. Thanks for reading and listening.