Morale Boost and Shared Feels Thread

I'm going to blogpost a bit so first here's some absolutely fantastic ethnic music as a whitepill payment. Will post more of these guys as well.

This actually feels healing. I did the same and it felt like a cleaning. I am building up for my next one, hope to do 14 days like you.

Thank you for posting today user. It's important to have threads of this nature periodically. Despite your despair and solitude I am relieved and emboldened to know that you care. At this juncture that is primary source of reinforcements in our struggle. Understand that you are not alone however. You are surrounded by us, in the collective consciousness of your kind and race, wherever you may be. In the day to day there may be no one to confide in, to relate to and to collaborate with, but that is part of the modern struggle exacerbated by atomization I lead every day with the mindset that, if I do not work with every granule of energy I have to advance the cause by my lonesome, no one else will. We must understand ourselves, and become dependent on ourselves. You, myself, other anons and people we cannot fathom are engaged in this alongside us. The most important thing is to act like we are the last man standing and fight like it, for if we were to ever encounter reinforcements even one unit could swing the tide of the battle. Never lose your sense of agency. This is the worst thing that has happened to our volk. They either know, that things will not improve unless they take direct action, yet are unwilling to do so, or they have blinded themselves from a truth to bright and daunting to face. The ignorant ones are those who can be informed and take a side, those who know and refuse their agency are helpless unto themselves. This is perhaps why the jewshit media has focused so greatly on the capeshit movies in the last decade or so. They want you to do nothing, to stand there waiting for the savior. Whether that savior is Christ, Iron Man, or the second coming of Hitler, they crave nothing more than removing your agency from you. Never let them have it and continue to employ it and adapt to whatever obstacles you encounter.

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It is the recipe that will free men to be led by their spirit and to achieve Ataraxia, rather than to be led by their loins or earthly pursuits.

What defines a victory? What conditions would lead someone such as yourself, or OP to victory? What does victory for the race and the volk look like going forward? Is it achieved all at once or in increments? Does it burn up or flow down from one soul to the next?

An excellent post. I find, that within humanity, the perfection lies within the flaw. Do we consider the masters of the former ages to be such because they delivered a flawless performance on their first attempt? Or do we regard them as such because they failed spectacularly, then adapted in kind to achieve what we call perfection? We live in an age where anything is possible, the only thing preventing us from accomplishing anything fathomable is thinking of it and then thrusting the thought from your mind into this realm. 2026 will mark the 250 year mark, I am dubious the cycle won't repeat itself for this empire as well.

If blogposting pisses you off just ignore, needed to express something.

I've been out of work most of the winter and I've simply run out of money. I'm struggling to find motivation to work because I'm completely black pilled on the economy and fiat currency and I don't believe I'm ever going to buy land or a house. I believe I'll probably just take the land and the house after SHTF, or use my savings (Gold and Silver) to buy them after hyperinflation. So all I need money for right now is rent and food.

I have a book I'm writing at the moment, but if it's successful I won't be seeing any cash for at least a few months, and I need cash now. I feel too autistic to interact with customers of my business (gardener/landscaper) and generally demotivated because I haven't been making money. I don't know why I haven't been doing the things I should, I just haven't. I guess I just have very low self esteem or belief or something. And I'm also too comfortable because my gf is relatively rich so it's easy to put things off til tomorrow. But then I feel guilty for taking her money for food and rent while not producing anything.

Then I remember that these problems are exactly what they want me to have. They want me to be poor and demotivated and not applying myself or becoming free and independent. So I guess I just have to do it regardless of my fear of failure or my feelings of inadequacy.

On a positive note I've been keeping fit and that's always been a great backbone to my life even when things aren't going well. It at least makes me feel strong and healthy. I think I'm mentally unhealthy though because of some deep problems with my father, ie he never actually parented me. I have recurring dreams of him not listening to me about something important or not paying attention to me/respecting me as a man. Growing up he literally just fed and housed me like a cat, and taught me absolutely nothing about life, no skills, morals etc. I was like a pet, I often felt from his perspective I was born for his enjoyment of having a son rather than as an actual commitment to raise a real human being. I was a fucking terrible person as a teenager.

It has made me extremely independent but also a bit drifty… like everything I know I learned myself or God taught me so if things go wrong I can lose confidence in my own skills and knowledge quite quickly, because they're all founded on each other if that makes sense. I'm also unsure of what to actually do with myself day to day beyond self improvement memes and prayer. I end up wasting my time on Zig Forums and youtube, seeking more knowledge, something, something that will show me the way or reassure me. All the while making no progress in my business and then feeling worse and more autistic, thus making it harder to get on with it.

I guess the answer is just to pull the bloody chaos together and turn it into a foundation, and build a tower of a career and life on it. I think what's stopping me is the shaky foundation of self esteem, not believing I deserve it etc. I know it's foolish to actually believe that but it's like the devil is latched on deep inside and no matter how much I try to believe I'm worthy of success, there's still a sinking feeling. Again it's probably exacerbated by being so disillusioned with the modern idea of "career" that just ends up funnelling all my productive energy into the banking system. My idea of success is just having a smallholding with hunting forests out back and being left the fuck alone (although with a community). It's hard to get into the business spirit when it's all about more, more more material wealth and feeding the beast.

I'm going up to my community farm tomorrow to help out. I guess I just need to nut up and get a couple of clients a week again, a couple of hundred quid a week is enough to live by quite happily for me. I think it's actually running out of money that's made me pretty depressed, just need to snap out of it. Here's more Rura.

Did you not get terrible headaches? It sounds very unhealthy, although I'm sure I'm ignorant on this.

Last one. They have a lot of good actual songs too, I recommend "Between the Pines", very fitting for these times although it's not on Youtube (it is on Spotify).

Do Kriya yoga (the only book containing the techniques is Kriya yoga: secrets revealed, 5th edition). Its only breathing exercises that will do fucking wonders, as the first things that you will notice is that it anchors you in the present and brings your general sense of awareness up a notch after every session. Do it for a year without jerking off and you will be walking Buddha.

I am going to look into this.

I just want both you anons to know that I read your posts and wish you good luck. Hopefully we can all make it to the other side.

I have heard that so many times from people who are not creative, or curious about anything that I simply do not give a shit about what they are saying any more.

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