When I was fairly young, 9 or so, I enjoyed documentaries. Typically these ducumentaries were very bias one way or the other but I found them intriguing nonetheless. Eventually during one of these, I looked up to my mother and exclaimed, "The Nazis don't really seem that bad." or something along those lines. This sent my mother into a red faced rage in reaction, not hyperbole in the slightest. She began spouting off about how they were killed in the millions, their hair used for making carpets and lampshades(?), soap factories. She even grounded me for a few days afterwards as additional punishment.
I believe this results from my area having a large Jewish minority, they are practically in every higher position. My mother was in the medical field, almost every doctor surrounding her being Jewish. This went so far that unto a point, she reccommended we try Hanukkah instead of Christmas one year. I actually became extremely subservient to this view, practically worshipping Jewish ideology going into my teens and becoming a radical defender of the Israeli state.
My question results in, how many others have had similar experiences? Anyone here on this board? And if not, do you think this type of thing effects other children in the way it effected me? I've only recently woken up a bit and am looking for some answers, one of my first posts as a lurker.
My family, especially my mom, are Ziocons. Even though they racist things occasionally against niggers and spics, they always defend Jews and Israel. Me and my brother are redpilled though. I think it's a combination of Christian Zionism and boomers being raised on the Holocaust Myth that causes them to be this way.
In America in the early-2000s the "History Channel" had constant documentaries about Hitler/Nazi Germany because it got good ratings. It would always depict him as eebul of course; but the more I watched, I learned that they wanted to defend European culture (going out of their way to preserve artifacts in Paris, etc.); and they wanted to stop the spread of Bolshevism. I have always been supportive of nationalism, so when I got a better understanding of modern politics, nationalism, and the left/right paradigm it all clicked. I had always liked German aesthetics also. The other brainwashing didn't even phase me. We had to watch Schindler's List in high school, and me and my friends just laughed at it and talked about how epic the executions were.
Jason Wilson
I legitimately thought that neoconservatism was the only opposite of leftist insanity. We were always taught that jews were deserving of special protection, irrespective of their behavior. Luckily I was around enough of them to recognize clear patterns fairly quickly in my teens. I played dumb to test some theories and noted the social erosion that surrounded them. They do the same crap in private circles as they pull on the world stage.
Nobody would put up with them if they weren't protected. Seriously.
Kevin Reyes
Yeah, it seems like I had a somewhat similar family then. I definitely believe that generation was hocked up on the Zionist juice more than others. I also had some funny stuff happen at my school, I remember once we had a class where we played with dreidels while learning about Jewish history in a overly positive light.
It took me a bit longer to really realize the error of my ways. I had this strange mixture of views for a while, thinking that Israel was necessary for the US to stay relevant in the middle east. It was a rather uneducated view, but it played into my fear of the US losing relevance on the world stage. I feel embarrassed I defended them so much in the past, but it's never too late to learn better.
Jonathan Rogers
I have the same face as the lad on the left but have long greasy hair, will I get pussy if I get his haircut?
Owen Rogers
Ha. I had such a similar experience. I've told this story a few times, and there are always other anons who tell me the same happened to them. Basically I would watch WW2 documentaries, and I was unconsciously rooting for the Axis. I'd get kind of depressed or bored whenever it got to around 1943 when the Axis were winning literally nothing. I didn't care too much about the Japanese, but Germany was always upsetting. I never outright said the "nazis" didn't seem that bad, because of the brainwashing, but I had this part of my brain that just instinctively liked them. And the literal second it seemed "okay" to like one of the "nazis" I loved him, Rommel, Mainstein, etc. (although now I have disdain for the disloyal generals) My parents didn't seem to mind too much, and there's still a joke in my house about how I want a Mercedes because Hitler had one.
My parents are Christian Zionists, so obviously I fell into that cult. (it's actually not too hard to deprogram these people; you just need to persistently treat kikes like 'normal' people, and the magical yid shit slowly fades) It's insane how they're able to instill such a slavish loyalty, a nationalism to a state which isn't even your own. People look at you funny if you express loyalty to the United States to the extent that people fawn over Israel. It's kind of sad, because you can talk to these Zionists and see them naturally understand concepts like nationalism and ethno-states. They just aren't allowed, or are unwilling to apply the same concepts to their own country.
Same. I also was completely unphased by the holocaust shit. I didn't necessarily think it was fake, but it seemed so irrelevant to me that for all intents and purposes I've always been a holocaust denier.
Charles Bell
I once told my mom I wanted to be a dictator. I was maybe 4yo. Don't remember tbh. She seemed cool about it though.
Jaxon Davis
Perhaps, it depends on your personality mostly. I have a friend who looks like a cross between a snake and goblin who pulls pretty frequently. If a haircut will boost your confidence and you like it, go for it.
It really is insane how adamantly you can program yourself to protect or serve something that isn't even in your self-interest. Rather off topic but still related in some ways, I see this a lot with individuals who shill for corporations. Why defend an entity that exists to take your money and take advantage of you? Just because? I understand if they are getting paid for it but random schlomos just dedicated to defending Hollywood baffle me.
I guess she really did believe you could be whatever you wanted to be when you grew up. Lol.
I told her I wanted to be a King. I don't anymore though. Ceremony and petty honors annoy me. I'll settle for President.
The way they do it is so devious. They don't just try to make it seem rational to support Israel or whatever. They make it a sort of moral imperative. They make it seem like you're a bad person if you don't agree with them 100%.
Levi Jones
If you don't support Israel then you cannot become president. After Trump they might not allow whites back into the presidency, but it depends on whatever would be the most useful to them.
Nathaniel Richardson
Yikes. I'm not even sure I'd take that job if they offered it to me. I'd just get killed, and the media would make me seem so bad that literal communists win in a landslide by the next election. Killing "they" and (((they))) and writing a new constitution on a Nationalist and Socialist foundation makes more sense. Although I'm not sure if people should still elect local and state level officials, or if they should be appointed by the federal government.
Luis Jenkins
My parents are/were Jewish-aware and I had a totally uncucked childhood. My mom hid her powerlevel from me until I was in college maybe, but even when I was a kid she was warning me against (((Disney))) and other degeneracies I might have been exposed to. Of course we never had that Evangelical spin on things. She was very trad, overall. Even from a young age, I felt like my family culture pre-dated the post-WWII (and even -WWI) Weltanshauung. Got my first gun when I was 12, inherited my first firearm when I was 14. Thank God.
Jose Morris
You lucky sob. My family are the opposite like with other anons here.
Cameron Watson
My older siblings were also really smart so as long as I remember, I got shat on for being stupid. It was great incentive to not be fucking stupid. My dad was also into "chemistry" so I have fond memories of making our own fireworks in the basement with my dad and brother. Also I was homeschooled for a bit, so by the time I got to public school I was already far ahead in terms of reading comprehension and math and science and stuff, not to mention poetry and philosophy, music etc. Didn't realize till later that I was learning the trivium and quadrivium at home. Yes, I was lucky.
Leo Ramirez
they kike themselves too.
Justin Campbell
I grew up very judaic. Neighbors, family, friends, tv, radio (stern) everywhere was the hand of jude. 9/11 woke me to the deception. I must have watched Loose Change 100x's sitting with my face 6 inches from the monitor. I was stuck for a week, unable to leave the house. Unable to think straight. My entire life, everything I had done, strived for, aspired to become, GONE!
I am the consequence of their action, not a victim of their crime.
Ryder Gray
Growing up, it was all pretty neocon Half of it was pretty "kill all fucking hippes" & "burn the muslims to the ground", but thats what you get from exmilitary values My mom always liked Jews, she'd say shit like "oyvey", not for any reason though, nobody on either sides of the family is jewish in any way In my late teens, and now, I got learned more gooder & taught the family about ZOG & all that shit, so its all fine now Mom quit the shit, & we've added every other group to the Book Of Grudges plus, I can say nigger without getting in trouble, so thats nice
My family was never normal, when it did come to hating groups (like jews), it was always a "just try not to get in trouble" kinda thing Already, we knew nigs gotta nog, and being califags, we absofuckinglutely hated spics from the start Only reason we didn't really hate jews was because at the time we were never given reason
Yeah, looking back there was a lot of moral pressure behind the whole ordeal. It was put onto me that the Jew's had a natural right to Jerusalem and all that, spiritually or otherwise.
You are pretty lucky, however, I am not jealous. Only relieved to hear that there are still good family units out there that instill caution and questioning. Keep up the good spirits.
Good to hear they were willing to listen later on. I come from a fairly conservative southern family, so you can imagine there is quite a bit of rational racism on the older side. It was mostly my direct parents who were the real issue. My maternal grandfather even admitted later on that I was correct about most racial topics.
Thanks for all the genuine replies, anons. Really helped me feel less alone in the struggle.
It's as if your parents hated you. I feel sorry for you, but as a wise man once said "There are not two truths." I am glad you arrived at the truth.
Austin Miller
My parents both had jewish classmates during the 1950s (parents are old). My father is totally blue pilled, whereas my mother went as far to say that "jewish people have their own stores to keep their money in the community."
At my prep school, one of the jew kids we were trying to recruit's mom wouldn't let him go to the school after she saw the cross in the chapel.
At Case Western, the rabbi who taught holocaust had no notes and would repeat the same lectures over and over again and was angry at us when we didn't tell him. One day he got so pissed off and we had no idea why. He started ranting and raving about how the nazis would put more than one body in the cremation oven at a time to speed up the process. One of the engineering students must have run some logistic numbers and confronted him.
Tyler Robinson
Creulty comes in many forms. Absentee the least of them.
Ryder Jackson
if you're a jew fuck you
Blake Wright
At the time, I thought it was my own presentation or behaviour was driving the bad times I had around certain other kids. On top of this, many of my teachers, neighbors, adolescent and early twenties college (((friends))) turned out to be Synagogue of Satan. The vast majority of my academic and religious life was completely saturated with kike propaganda as well. A mainline horror movie with invisible monsters. Much too much later in life, after a lot of reading on the kikes and careful written reflection, it all really was just the kikes. In the neighborhoods, hippie-boomers behaved basically as kikes or neutral familiars: while everyone else elders were so disgusted by the Hiribu inculcation of world fratricide that an omerta was common. A Wittgenstein effect arising from the problem of; what can be said? In that negroidic silence between ignorance and recalcitrant culpability, a lot of malevolent invader kikes arrived expecting fanfare, bullying with their lies, black propaganda, rumor mongering, banking juntas, intrusion into the professions, spycraft, marketing scams, schtadlans, property and business buyouts, lobby hives, compromat and degenerate lifestyles. Difficult not to be deceived in that environment. Clown world boomers were zero help, probably less so. Not really understanding my intuitive impulse, I kept trying to get away from the kikes, relocating many times, which didn't turn out to be a functional strategy. It also had the disadvantage of appearing irrational. With the web now, despite the Neanderthal censorship – learned more than I could have reasonably hoped without. I am optimistic that a civic minded generation is coming around to fashy natsoc rationales. tl;dr – life with kikes intolerable, fratricide bad, future not completely gone.