can we have a thread just to talk about what's happening in our lives, to vent a bit and share random thoughts?
even if it's not politic-related, let's just listen to each other comrades
How's your life going comrades?
Henry Rivera
Christian Rogers
What makes comrade a comrade? What's the point of blowing your load here if there would be no relief?
Thomas Kelly
getting stuff out is always a relief. even writing shit down somewhere you know no-one will ever see can get a bit of weight off your chest. the fast pace of our technological late capitalist lives rarely allows us to sit down and think about what's wrong and what could be fixed, and even writing some nonsense on an imageboard can be a way to focus a bit on what you want to get out.
James Nelson
I have a steady job, i just got a raise, I just bought a new computer I'm building with my best friend, I go to the gym, i have two girlfriends, one is a literally autistic atheist who is obsessed with health and biology, can't really show emotions but fucks hard all day and the other one is a trans woman who was traumatized and hasn't had sex in years but is going to sexual therapy just so she can bottom for me and she is really emotional and lovey.
So other than the fact that I live with my parents I have nothing to complain about hopefully things keep going good because this is the first time I've been genuinely happy in years.
Jason James
Still the conditions that alienated me enough to push me to gommunism in the first place. Jobless NEET, and even my own family see me as nothing more than an autism diagnosis. Nobody truly takes me seriously in anything I do. It's the very definition of alienation.
Bentley Adams
I feel incapable. I know that there are things I can do, and I know I could do them well, but I just don't do them. I saw my father die before my eyes. He had brain cancer, and passed away three months ago. I was there, I wanted to do something, I wanted to do whatever it took; but there was nothing I could do. I just had to stay there and watch as time took him away. And now in every aspect of my life I feel completely unable to act. The only moment when I really wanted to act, I couldn't, and now even if I want to, I can't.
It's killing me. School, relationships, life itself has to go on as if nothing happened, but it's impossible for me to pretend that nothing happened. I have always lived in the high expectations of others, and have always managed to live up to them. I know it's wrong but there's nothing I can do about it, and now I don't manage to be that way anymore and it's killing me. There are so many things in my life that I desperately want to change, but I don't manage to. And it's things that aren't even impossible, but I just feel so incapable. I feel so stupid. I break down and cry on a daily basis, but keep waking up the morning after and putting on this mask that I don't even manage to keep on anymore. There was nothing to do when I really wanted to do something, and now I feel like I can't do anything in any other aspect of my life either. I know I could, I know I should, but I'm just so terribly incapable and I don't know how to go on.
Jaxon Thomas
Anons, don't underestimate how much physical activity can improve you're outlook on life.
Levi Rogers
Pretty awful. I feel insanely underutilized. I'm from a poor, working class family. Busted my ass in school and got straight A's. School was too easy for me, so I never learned how to study properly. Went to college and the pricetag scared me along with most of my financial aid being commensurate on maintaining a certain GPA. I chose a major (non-STEM) that was nearly guaranteed placement with a reasonable starting salary. Internships, graduated with honors, all that. I graduated as the economy was in freefall from the subprime mortgage crisis because some porky with 20B dollars needed 21B. Job prospects were nil. Ended up taking a shitty job because student loans don't care about the economy. Worked that for two years. Since I aged out of all the normal feeder programs from my college, my career has been full of long periods of unemployment which, in turn, makes me unemployable. Made many friends that are software developers that are C-average students and wake and bake stoners making double or triple what I've ever made. Decide to retrain for Comp Sci. Get in touch with Alma Mater about coming back and am told the requirements. Spend money I don't have acing calc, phys, and chem at the local community college. Ready to apply and then am told that they aren't taking second Bachelor's students right now. Now I'm stuck and angry. Can't get calls back on jobs because I've got a huge resume gap. Literally over a thousand applications submitted. Been to every career counseling resource I can get my hands on and nothing. All the work for nothing.
So what do I do? Live straight edge. Go to the gym six days a week. Plot the overthrow of the existing structure.
Isaiah Nguyen
I just want you to know that you're not alone and I underwent a very similar set of life circumstances. I know exactly how you feel–it's a very brutally cold, atomised world out there–everything operates indifferently because all capital cares about is the utility of its productive workers, 'mental health' (WHEN CONTEXTUALIZED UNDER NEOLIBERAL INTENT) amounts to little more than a charade used to sustain the possibility of individual productivity and subservience to the system at large, generally reducing all questions of social alienation concurrent within the personal struggles of the individual solely to the abstracted form of the individual in a vacuum–so that the fault can be attributed to some immutable, nebulously correlated personal characteristics. It's why behavioural genetics in the field of psychology is even a thing; stated funded justification with little scientific consistency outside of statistical tautologies and circular presuppositions for its models. I'm getting tangential here but my point is that your experience is, as alone as you may feel, emblematic moreso of the coldness inherent to the current world at large. I too suffered from trauma as the result of family cancer, albeit at a young and impressionable age, and this suffering persisted for years; I sat alongside my dying family member holding their hand in their weakest, most frail moments. Time really melts away into a sort of mired meaninglessness when you're constantly exposed to the perennial suffering of others–everything sort of turns numb. Anyways, I failed one of my classes this semester due to poor mental health, for the first time ever. I normally receive A's. So the reality of the toll mental anguish can take is definitely a real thing, it makes it very difficult to not just 'be lazy' and persist soullessly all for the sake of the dehumanizing monolith. The problem is that trauma and its effects are invisible in our daily lives, and yet trauma only receives consideration when it's in the interest of promoting 'mental health awareness' so as to destigmatize its existence, but never to directly address the root of what trauma does–it incapacitates a person's potential by resetting their being. In theory such a reset could even be liberating, but in actuality it ends up being a curse because the most valuable support system of all, that of social resonance and sympathy, is not fundamentally available within the fabric of our contemporary society… it only exists in the context of a paid service (i.e. JUST GO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST BRO, THERE ARE GOOD ONES I PROMISE!!). Personally I've seen 7 psychologists over a period of almost 10 years now. It doesn't get better. I can remember life before I was so stunted, and I can say I was genuinely pretty blissful. But no, my depression, under typical neoliberal ideological standards, will be
'objectively' (which is of course absurdly ironic considering the roots of my pain are experienced from a phenomenological pivot, and are thus subjectively irreducible) attributed to some innate predisposition, even though I lived a significant portion of my life experiencing hardships without any point of debilitating depression resulting from them. I also learned that most people, despite their best intentions or desire to appear considerate an compassionate at the surface level, are too individualistically self-absorbed to truly care about the suffering of one another. After all, so the instilled narrative goes, 'I'm busy and my life is full of its own challenges, how can you possibly expect me to fathom yours?' . But obviously the result of this is only the perpetuation of yet an increasingly isolated society, which in turn will lead the blind-sided individualist down a path of intensified adversity, which in turn will lead the ideologically inclined psychologist down an intensified push towards immutable naturalistic explanations of what is ultimately a socio-symbolic problem foremostly grounded in the relationships of production (as social consequences disseminate into our daily relationships accordingly, such is the dynamic of the hegemonic, etc.) …
Anyways, this post is long-winded, somewhat tangential at times, unformatted and I'm not even sure if I actually quoted the person I'm responding to, as I never post here and I'm just a fucking lurker faggot, but my point is that I read your post and felt it was so relatable I was inclined to respond. Trauma is such a disempowering thing, and the daily matter of the world is utterly indifferent. I too have lived in the high expectations of the others, but now I am only a disappointment, wasted 'potential', and so on…
Jaxon Jenkins
*let you know that you're not alone.
Kevin Adams
Aaaaaaaaand my car is leaking girl and i have to leave it at work because driving it home might make it catch on fire.
This probably happened ad a direct result of me writing about how great my life was going.
Oliver White
*Fuel
Dylan Garcia
Thank you infinitely for taking the time to write all this.
The situation is crazy. What makes me go mad isn't really pain in itself, but the effort I have to put into hiding it. Everything you say about capitalism's self-absorbed brutal indifference is so tragically true. Trying to balance the demons inside you with a world that expects you to live and consume as if those demons never existed is impossible. So I end up constantly hiding them and unwantingly feeding them, I pretend like I'm normal when I know I'm being judged, but then as soon as I'm alone enough, I break down and feel the worst kind of pain imaginable. Human beings were meant to live in harmony, we are part of something bigger, we are made of the same atoms and the same organs as each other (dad taught me this) ; we should never be alone when the pain comes, aloneness in pain is just more food for the demons, and even knowing that some stranger on the internet understands me is somewhat encouraging. And still we have created a world of complete isolation where egoistic accumulation is the only aim, and anything that doesn't help with that accumulation must be hidden.
I am 17 years old right now, I have my final highschool exam in less than a month. I try. I keep thinking dad would want me to be strong, but how can I even pretend to be strong when all my strength has been sucked out like this… I used to be the top of the class and now I sit in front of a book for hours and just don't manage to understand what those fuckin useless words mean. My teachers look right through me, I can't blame them, they probably don't even know what happened and just expect me to function rationally because that's all we're meant to do in this fucking world where feelings are mere obstacles for attaining maximum productivity. I keep on going because I pretend, but every step the outside world thinks I make, inside it just keeps getting worse; and every tear I keep from coming out, keeps feeding a tsunami inside my heart. I have to wear a mask every day. I have to sit in front of those books and then get angry with myself for being dumb. I have to be with this boyfriend I don't love and hear him say "it was three months ago, think about something else", and then get angry with myself for not having the strength to tell him to fuck off. I don't even know. I want to crash. I can't keep living in the expectations of a world that doesn't know what I feel and doesn't even care if I exist or not, but that's the only way to keep on going and I wouldn't have the strength to do otherwise.
I'm crying, thank you so much for giving me the chance to talk. It helps.
Daniel Stewart
Having to pawn my guns to buy food. I think I'd be better off just pulling some licks tbh.
Jeremiah Rivera
I've got boons to the left of me, monkeys to the right…
Thomas Morgan
Stuck in the middle ya with ya? Break yourself, lmao.
Leo Hill
Who's the guy in the pic?
Liam Adams
Hello FBI, I will now divulge my personal life for the sake of venting.
Overall, I say my life is going pretty alright or at least better than most of my comrades. No financial or emotional issues atm. I just graduated college and I am trying to look for a job that isn't in a fucking kitchen/service industry. I need to call back that insurance place after I get done with family vacation.
I'm okay with my current dishwasher gig, since it's easy and I can get high as fuck at work plus my coworkers are chill.
Too bad I only get paid $9/hr so this wage isn't even livable and I wouldn't even be in the good position if it wasn't for the financial support from my family gives.
Another problem is that if I want a "real" job I need to quit the weed since every place drug tests in the conservative South. I just don't know if I can kick the habit right now, I'm pretty content with life but I know I can be so much more than a fucking dishwasher. I get no respect from anyone since my job is literally cleaning the bottom of the barrel.
I want to be independent financially but this concept seems to be harder and harder to obtain for early 20 yos. I know so many of my friends who still live with family or get some type of financial support. Everyone I know seems to be stuck in place no matter how hard they work. My only goal right now is to get a better job and save some money so that I can travel. Rinse and repeat til I die I guess or start the revolution. Hopefully the latter but given the current state of affairs I think the revolution is a bit far off sadly.
inb4 ban hammer get outta highschool and then get into a trade, too many people are going to college nowadays
Gavin Hall
iktf. I don't know if i'd call it trauma but i think something reset my in my early 20s and i thought it'd be a great thing but it backfired. I speak pretty vaguely but I know this feeling of "reset"
James Bell
Tbh? I hate this board, I think I'm the only one who managed to get less radical because of it. I think half of the people on here are LARPers and future liberals and the other half are a bunch of redliberals with 0 self awareness.
I understood that I don't even feel like fighting for people like you guys or with people like you. At this point what I do is basically study history and art from a marxist prospective, dream about ex socialist countries and hope for ☭TANKIE☭ parties to get traction in eastern europe or for guys like corbyn and co. To take us a step forward socialism.
For the rest I think image boards ruined every single passion I had, marxism too.
Chans are the biggest shit holes on the internet, I don't even fucking know how I ended up here. I know I stayed because they are pretty addictive and the raccomandation charts on 4 /lit/ and /mu/ are pretty cool.
That said I can't fucking relate to anything you guys post. The use of stacy and chad really ended it for me. Really. I started to browse and I started to feel insecure about height, race, penis, hands, wrist, sexuality ecc. Last time I stopped browsing I felt like my dick got bigger (not joking).
Probably discovering this board did more damage than anything else because you somehow managed to make me be ashamed of agreeing politically with you. So fuck you tbh, the only decend guy on here is the tank poster from Germany.
Bunch of fucking queers and autist. I never fucking how transtion (sexual) worked before coming here and I'm still confused as fuck. I mean I never me a guy transtioning irl, while everyone here is. Like wtf? I'm I the only one who feels a little bit weirded out by this? Yeah, this board also made me staunchly anti trans and anti queer. Before I thought that It was such an uncommon and unimportant occurrence that being pro or anti didn't even making a difference, then seeing guys on here I understood that being a trans and being a sexual deviant 8/10 is because you are insecure and alienated as fuck.
This is not fucking normal
Also the fucking obsession with traps. Oh boy. This probably kept me on chans more than anything else. I've yet, after 2 years, understand how this fucking trap bullshit make sense.
Is it projection? What the fuck is it? Why not going directly with men?
And what's up with anime? I didn't even know that nerds watched that shit.
Is it a coincidence btw that most people on chans are americans?? I think not. I really think not. I got extremely anti am*rican too. I'm literally scared of americans. I'm scared that people I read about on here, that people I see on youtube, that people incels and autist talk about will be here too one day. It's a fucking nightmare. I basically went goebbels in regards to americans. I don't think that when the american question will be resolved we will get world wide communism, I know it's capitalism and capitalism doesn't have a nation, but I also belive that Americans are a problem apart. They should be dealt with.
Seriously, and we want to talk about racial fetishization? People on chans take it to obsessive amout.
Now everytime I see a mixed couple or a person of another race interacting with girls or people I'm really fucking confuse and think that this process goes in their mind too. This is probably the greatest aggravator seeing how I'm mixed racconta myself. Seriously fuck you for this one, fuck your porn and your americanism (yeah, this is totally america' s fault in my book)
Basically all in all a terrible experience that probably crippled me for life. I will probably gain most confidence back, but passion for marxism, the idea that americans are humans like me, the idea that x race does x thing, the idea that there is nothing wrong with being a trans or a queer, the idea that a functioning member of society can watch anime ecc.
It's gone man, gone forever.
Fuck you all. I just discovered that I can block sites, I will. This and 4chan too. I will get blind drunk. Lock this place with a random password so random that I won't remeber and forget about all this shit.
I just want to say that if you are like me or in a similar situation as me, live this place right now. You can still be a neet, autist or whatever the fuck you are but instead read, learn too cook, play video games, listen to music, watch movies ecc. Whatever. Waste time on the stupidest thing you can think about, but go away from here. It's fucking you up. Anything is better, anything.
Jaxon Green
18 year old male here, I live some shitty suburb where you need to drive everywhere but I don't have a license because my parents would not show me untill i turned 17. I'm unattractive, a manlet and look like I'm 14. I fucked up the only relationship I every had so I'm a virgin. On the bright side, I've been doing a duel enrollment program with my high school so I'll graduate community College with a computer science degree. I am terrible at everything I do, though I have 3.4 gpa. Im an only child and my family is pretty middle class. I was employed at subway in December and was fired in a week for not doing the tasks correctly. I forget things a lot, like I forgot my key at home today had to wait at a friend's house. I deprive myself of sleep just to browse the internet. I feel like my many challenges are no big deal for others but I fail because I'm retarded.
Michael Cox
I've only ever seen like three posters total who have come out as "trans" here. Mind elaborating?
>inb4 BO meme
Julian Martin
I don't think my parents realize just how much being a landlord is a moral rot. They call people lowlives when they don't pay but don't think about how much easier it'd be for the tenants to get their lives together if they had that third of their income at their disposal.
Eli Jenkins
Alcoholism has increased exponentially the last year, I am now actually physically dependent on alcohol and will get withdrawal symptoms if I try to quit cold turkey which has never happened to me before.
Extremely depressed, been overeating a lot, have absolutely no motivation to do things I need to do like get a job, save money, move into my onw place etc.
Lots of drama in my local music scene, which was one of the only things keeping me from becoming a total hermit. There was a huge fight at a show a while back and now everyone hates each other and a bunch of people are all taking sides and forming little cliques and shit and it's basically all a bunch of bullshit I don't feel like getting involved with.
Constantly anxious over things I can't change. Everytime I feel like getting better and trying to it seems like shit just gets worse. It seems like the less I try the least bad things get and the more I try the worse life gets. Really really want to kill myself but don't want my parents to have to deal with it.
Idk everything seems absolutely pointless and chaotic and if I could go back in time and strangle myself in the womb I would. Legitimately see no purpose in doing anything but jacking off watching porn eating too much and drinking excessively
Eli Hernandez
I never been able to utilize my education instead had bullshit jobs that just perpetuates the mindless consumption of commodities for measly wages.
Daniel Russell
You know tbh I feel a lot of the same points you make too
Jose Robinson
this has to be a copypasta
no one is this retarded
Jace Baker
My life's going well and in the direction I want it to. I'm happy, satisfied, although I could be more productive (i.e. read more frequently than once a day or write weekly rather than bi-monthly). All that's really left for me is to start working out and I'm pretty much ready for the next global catastrophe. The only things I need to quit are browsing Zig Forums and eating sweets. On the one hand I love chocolate, on the other I am disgusted whenever I see people gorging themselves on junkfood, especially kids. Speaking of, anyone here planning on having kids? I'm likely to end in a teaching department in Hogwarts, but I might adopt a kid later in life.
Caleb Reed
...
Sebastian Murphy
Maybe if I get my professorship, but I'd like to earlier than that so that my parents can be with their grandkids
Christopher Thompson
THINK
Cameron Barnes
I'm content with my life but it's not productive, at all. I've been a NEET for like 6 years now and have zero social exposure. I don't even know how to initiate contact with people any more.
But I'm content with it, which is worrisome, because I've become too comfortable to change.
Jayden Price
I live in a toxic shithole but I can't afford to move while on welfare so I'm stuck indoors
Jonathan Harris
uhh let's see
strange feels
Gabriel Stewart
Got some nice gains in the past months at the gym, upcoming exam is stressing me out since I dont have a way to proper study yet, and I got just a bit more than 2 months to study
Hopefully I'm able to pass and join the Army, redpill a bunch of people and start another Copacabana revolt
Grayson Peterson
I mean to study computer shit in college.
But, what it seems like you can get paid for is horrible shit. I don't want to help put a microcontroller in your toilet bowl, I want nothing to do with "web"-anything, nor smartphone "app" garbage. nothing interesting, beautiful, fun, or otherwise good in any way looks to be particularly popular.
but, my math is at the level of a 3rd year high school C-minus to C-plus grade student or lower as a consequence of having left school early. I did two communit ycollege math classes but they only got to basic level pre-calc and I dont even know any trigonometry. so im not sure what I can study. im 20 now and turn 21 this year. I'll apply to hopefully go back in fall.
of course, I'd find history, or linguistics, or archaeology, or some other things all interesting. but, I dont want to be poor and work 50 hours a week struggling to make bills if an accident happens until I get too old to and have to live in a home, slowly dying alone. Its not like I find computers any less interesting than any of those things.
I also feel lonely. The worse it gets the more I experience >tfw no gf. I wish I had a social circle IRL like I had back when I was in school. People with shared interests and cultural influences. Internet weeb nerd shit and chan culture, or at least its runoff into reddit and elsewhere. A tendency towards introversion and reclusiveness, at least a little. I have three online friends Ive known for a long time and still talk to, and I'm happy to have them, they make it much better than beint entirely alone. But, IRL relationships are also necessary. Internet ones even feel better when you also have IRL ones.
Though even if I could have some friends when I go back to school, we'll scatter every which way to wherever a boss can make money from us when we graduate.
And then I'll have studied webshit and work on horrible garbage manipulating peoples ignorance to extract money and information from them. Or, i'll have studied something good, and probably flip burgers or just live off UBI when robots are flipping all the burgers. Or, Ill have studied something hard and good, and never had any friends, because I had to spend all my time studying to keep up and also be addicted to adderall.
I don't feel afraid about any of this, and only a tiny bit anxious. Mostly just phlegmatically melancholy, and also somewhat bitter. Occasionaly angry.
Robert Kelly
this fucking post mein gott
the spirit of mark fisher types through him
Noah Kelly
Just finished by third year of uni, waiting to start a summer job with the government as a research assistant (my prof hooked me up). Until then I'm just working retail, doing a bit of reading (a little theory and history) and bumming around. Boredom has been my biggest problem lately, it's making me a little depressed which has increased my alcohol/weed intake quite a bit, but nothing out of control. Planning on getting some of my uni friends together to do some organizing, but they're all busy canvassing for the local socdems (provincial election in June) even though they are almost all more radical than them. After they're done I'll see if I can try to find the time and energy to get something off the ground, until then I'm just working and killing time with work, vidya, theory, and booze.
Blake Evans
How can you possibly go through so many books and especially Shakespeare, Kant or Marx at this speed? I need ages to read even a marxist pamphlet as soon as it uses economical concepts
Cameron Rodriguez
Life is surprisingly simple
Noah Brooks
two choices: go to rehab/alcoholics anonymous or ruin your life.
Joshua Perez
Everything should be going great, i've found love which simultaneously gives me purpose, I don't have many worries besides the usual shit everyone who doesn't earn 350k a year has, but I just can't stop worrying about death. It's not really dying itself that scares me, or not even leaving behind those I love, it's just not doing anything important or that I can be proud of before I die. I haven't done anything with my life, it's just one long bore with nothing of note. I've been having these thoughts for months and it's been depressing the fuck out of me and giving me anxiety. I hate myself as well. I hate my body, I hate my personality, my taste in music, everything. I hate that im venting about this shit on Zig Forums of all places but i hate that i bottle this shit up for months at a time. There's no end to this in sight and it's killing me.
Brandon Phillips
well, I have severe depression, was too poor to afford proper education for what I want to do in life, work a shit job, and I'm a very disturbed individual
still better than what it used to be though
Grayson Green
That's a load of rambling and nonsense unrelated to this board that you did, but I hope you (and everyone) understands that absolutely no person who is a regular user of the imageboards is sane and well-adjusted, and I need no clarify why,
You say that bad things happened to you because of the site. In reality, bad things happened because of your own condition, and chans (and similar addictions) at least numbed the pain, without taxing you as hard as things like drugs would.
You'll be back too, you can't really hard block a site which cannot be bypassed in literal seconds.
Lucas Hall
I am Jesus. This thread contains good people and bad people. I will now tell who goes to hell and who goes to heaven.
BAD PEOPLE WHO GO TO HELL:
GOOD PEOPLE WHO GO TO HEAVEN:
If you die today your soul will be sent accordingly. I have spoken.
Daniel Scott
You ever just walk around departement stores, looking at the products or watching commercials. Then ask yourself, what the fuck is the point of all this?
Gabriel Martinez
You are just so UGH
Ryan Howard
Double hell.
Jackson Butler
Life is pretty fine and feels purposeful in the sense that i want to keep living. I wish i had more security in terms of employment and housing so i wouldn't have to feel like i might be facing homelessness within a month or so at any one time. My bf not being in mortal danger 24/7 would also be nice and spare me a lot of worry.
Adam Evans
Could be worse I suppose. Last week I realised I might have a depression. Instead of whining I've decided to start taking measures. I've developed a steady sleep cycle by waking up at 6:30 every day and talking a walk around the local park after 7:00. Healthy breakfast including nuts and fruit, proper fresh made lunch. Finally made a swimming schedule instead of just swimming a few laps twice a week. Also wrote some short term goals on my whiteboard here to cross of.
Just to cover all bases I'm making an appointment with a shrink this week.
It'll be alright comrades.
Hunter Garcia
I know this is a shitpost and you're probably not even a Christcom but honestly, from the bottom of my heart, fuck (you)
Jackson Sullivan
janny nanny boo ban me
Blake Young
I ask myself that in dread, but I don't seek it out as I just fall into it when I go to the store.
Lucas Clark
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Josiah Brooks
i have taken up my productivity at job seeking lately, i made a series of python programs that search for compatible charges to my profile, and then apply to them, at the beggining just one presented trouble, but after the third i just kept making them, currently i have like 5, so this means that the amount of jobs i can apply to only depends on my processor, the offers avalible, and time, i run them like every two days when i can bother, and the jobs i get calls from are mainly in a couple of kinds, one is the job that is in the capital city of my country, they call me to ask where i live and then just say sorry when i tell them, then there is the job that is just there because i speak english, these are mainly from call centers, wanting me to do shit like IT for burgers, but are also stuff like teacher, there is also the times they call me to be a programer, because i know how to write in like two languages, and finally is like the unrelated job to my education, where somehow the program fucked up, and signed me up to be a butcher or something, and they call me up to ask if i've got any butcher experience, and i say no and they hung up, i get 0 calls about my actual profesion, i could get a job as any of those, but i don't really want to, if i do that i'll never really get experience as my profesion and subsequently will not get a job there, and anyway all these jobs are specially denigrating, since no to brag but i've actually publish in a science journal, which apparently is worth nothing
Brody Watson
Kill yourself lol
Aiden Howard
Jayden Clark
Good work comrade!
Adam Fisher
I like you too!
Justin Wilson
I just basically consolidated the transgender aspect of queer theory that I've been researching, so I'm pretty happy about that. It's actually been keeping me a bit uplifted the last few days because I feel like I have a theoretical bulwark to use with people who want to talk about the topic irl.
My job is shit, but I'm hoping to rake in some extra cash over the summer before I dive back into college. I wanna get some legal shit changed and save some vacation money. I have been thinking about getting a new job, but I've been at this one long enough that I'm worried if I ditch it, I won't find such malleable full-time work again, or even consistent work at all.
I spent a handful of days with one of my partners last week, and that was great. I felt happy a handful of times, and I usually don't feel that way. She watched Rampage with me, and I was super excited about it because I was so down to see some trash that capitalized on my shitty childhood games, and it was just about the perfect movie for that.
Nathaniel Bennett
Fun fact: lobsters don't have a word for transgender in their vocabulary, eh.
Oliver King
Dealing w/ joblessness. I knew that getting an English degree would be a long search for jobs, but I graduated with Honours, plus I've been published, and the majority of replies to job applications are only acknowledgement of receipt, and i don't even get a rejection letter. So far there have been four responses: only one was a legitimate business, one was a shady pay-for-essay company, and two were actually the same multi-level marketing company working under multiple aliases.
For all the free time I have I've ended up having a lot of trouble actually producing more written work, I've just been treading water with stream of consciousness exercises. I feel very isolated at the moment and I can't help but feeling that if I had someone I was writing for instead of having to rely in self-criticism I'd get more done.
I've got chemical depression, and while right now I'm not necessarily sad, I'm feeling very low energy in regards to most actual productive parts of my life right now.
On the other hand I'm trying to stay positive. I've been taking my depression meds with better consistency than usual, and I'm aware I'm more fortunate than other people. I'm still able to keep afloat on EI, and while living with my parents is embarrassing, it's free.
And hell, it's a really beautiful spring where I live, and I've been able to put my mind off of it for a while biking around the city, and the job I had before basically ate all my life and energy away, and this time away has allowed me to actually catch up with everything i missed, though the ticking clock of needing to get a job soon does dull the enjoyment.
Easton Collins
You need to sort yourself out, bucko.
Consider the plight of the lobster.
Chase Gonzalez
Someone I know has been trying to get me to watch this guy's content. He sent me an hour and a half-long talk he gave which, at least according to the clickbait thumbnail and title, is supposed to be about identity politics and white privilege or something, but so far he's just been outlining some weird conspiracy theory about neo-Marxist feminists who are also postmodernists somehow trying to make everything communist or something. I've watched about fifty minutes of it now, and I wound up sending this friend about a page worth of points deconstructing the first half hour of it. Now I'm at a part where he's talking about the Holodomor for some reason? And I'm told he's the intellectual king of the right wing at the moment?
Joseph Harris
I dunno, I'm just laughing at his Kermit the frog voice while he's fucking the chair.
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Brayden Collins
Matthew Reyes
Put a spoiler on this pile of dung, fucker.
Kevin Wood
How did you meet your autistic gf? Is it worth seeking for one? Ask for a comrade
John Johnson
I got clean after a grueling addiction to IV heroin.
it takes every ounce of my willpower to stay clean tho.
Tyler Parker
Fentanyl is the heroin of the opiate.
Jacob Phillips
I feel happy. I am growing more and more detached from politics alltogether, with number of reasons for doing so: I really got into buddhism (I was irreligious for 5 years), started kind of sorting things out, going out more, smiling and enjoying everything as it is. I exchange reading communist theory for spiritual books about happiness and meditation. Even though I still consider myself somewhat marxist, I just cannot accept violence and war as a tool, which doesn't really goes well with Marxist theory of violent revolution (even though Engels wrote that communist would be more than happy to see a peaceful transfer of power). I don't know if I will be able to remain "red" in coming months.
Dylan Wright
Nice try, Varg, convert or go
Wyatt Garcia
Jesus here. You guys go to hell gulag.
Julian Parker
Californian here. This is THE ISSUE and THE ONLY ISSUE. Everything other issue can go fuck itself.
Asher Adams
As I understand it, there is tons of red tape and zoning laws surrounding building new housing.
This makes new development cost prohibitive, so population has been growing faster than housing.
Demand is exceeding supply, leading to outrageously high prices.
Nolan Phillips
If you can deliver tangible results Mr. GOP I'd vote for you. Be the party that actually does something and I'd vote for you in a heartbeat. I don't give a fuck about abortion laws and immigration if Democrats can't do shit about the cost of living. All those champaign Lear Jet liberals can all die in a wildfire for all I care.
Aaron Taylor
Republicans or Democratic legislators won’t be able to fix it. The problem is due to a patchwork of retarded city ordinances and municipal laws stretching across the state.
One of California’s quirks is that it’s really easy for its residents to amend the constitution. The only light on the horizon would be a nonpartisan ballot initiative for a constitutional amendment to wipe the slate clean and get rid of all these locals laws. Maybe that will happen eventually if things get bad enough.
In the mean time, just move to Colorado or something.
Andrew Bell
My wife and her boyfriend are expecting their second child together. I couldn't be more happy for them.
Tyler Wright
Why don't you go back to your cringy /soyboys/ parody board, faggot?
Benjamin Sanders
Excuse me? I have been a proud Marxist-Leninist longer than you have been an adult. Watch your tongue before I get my bull to spit on it.
Julian Cruz
We met on tinder.
Not that interesting.
Ryder Morris
My motorcycle is stolen, my scooter is stolen, my bike is broken, I got a fine for taking bus because I couldn't afford ticket and ticket officer threw me around, I have to walk 2 hours every day because I can't afford any form of transportation…………
I have an exam in a week but I don't really care about stuff anymore………….
Evan Young
Life has been boring & uneventful for the past 2 years. But im slightly content at times & also melancholic at times as well. Next week I turn 21 & im wondering if anybody will remember it. I doubt it.
Nathan Jones
Damn dude are you in Romania or something
Dominic Long
Denmark………..
John Davis
Ah, im sorry for your loss fellow third worlder
Josiah Flores
Stay strong user. Study up and take that exam.
Jordan Miller
Danish people really seem to love vehicles with two wheels.
Ayden Morgan
But Zig Forums and Amerilard succdems told me Denmark is heaven.
Easton Rodriguez
My life's uh pretty average-bad lol. I'm pretty depressed most of the time, feel very lonely and alienated despite "knowing" how I have many family, and friends who care for me, even though I don't see tons of my friends in person that often. I mean, I'm not materially wanting atm which is something that makes me kind of circularly feel bad about myself for even being so down - especially in light of how many more people are suffering so much more than I, I can demean my depressed attitude, like "you don't have a right to feel this bad" - which only makes me feel worse lol.
A lot of terrible self-loathing and self-pity. All the while trying to slowly look for a job, building a resume etc. I have friends I hang out with every once in a while, and I'm very excited about joining an actual socialist party that I've been hanging around the members of for a while. And last week I had an excellent trip to Florida with some friends, I had never been before. I'm halfway through university and feel more clueless about what I "want" to do there, if anything, than ever before. I think I want to abandon my current major, but I have so many interests and don't really want to narrow them down, and it's very hard for me to see myself doing anything else in the future.
I think all I really want to do is participate in the class struggle, study biology, read history literature philosophy and theory, and have some friends - but I dunno. Feeling very alienated atm.
Also have a huge crush on a pretty awkward but also extremely cute girl who's a bit older than me, but I'm also quite socially awkward and think that I probably have no chance at this point, and/or that I've fucked it up - w/e.
James Sullivan
Life is pretty good I guess. I was stuck in precarious employment for 1½ years(working as a temp) but a couple of months ago i got a real contract with guaranteed employment until the end of the year, I'm going to have my first payed vacation in august and I'm lose to finishing my bachelors degree(after five years lmao) and I've started working out. Even if these things have improved my well-being a lot I still find myself depressed and unable to connect with/feel connected to other people. I keep having these paranoid thoughts about what people 'really' think of me, always assuming it's something bad, sometimes I think I'm 'literally an insane person' whose actions seem incomprehensible to the general public. It makes me feel like I'm destined to be this weird loner whose 'self improvement' is really just a vain attempt to escape a reality that will inevitably come crashing down: once again proving that i can't escape my destiny.
I'm sorry I didn't mean for it to get this long.
Leo Stewart
I COULD HAVE SAVED YOU
I TRIED TO WARN YOU, BUT YOU LOOKED AWAY
WHY DIDN'T YO LISTEN
IT DIDN'T HAVE TO END LIKE THIS
YOU COULD HAVE PREVENTED THIS
YOU ONLY HAD TO LISTEN
Nolan Robinson
Man was ahead of his time in a certain regard
Wyatt Turner
Yeah, Marx knew how nothing socialist would come out of Georgist economic ideas (see land value tax during the Meiji restoration in Japan)
Bentley Bell
Pretty fucking terrible. I'm in my mid-20s and have essentially wasted my life due to laziness, low self-esteem, an endless ability to delude myself, daydreaming, lack of focus and determination, and fear of people in general. For most of my life I was "that guy", a weird, sickly social outcast who also managed to be a total underachiever.
I've been getting a lot better in the last year, but only because I essentially became an automaton. That's literally the only way I found to be productive and functional. I schedule my days and follow that schedule religiously, I abstain from most things I like (alcohol, porn, videogames, wasting hours listening to music and podcasts and other loser hobbies), I jump from task to task as if I had to hurry before the "real me" stepped in and derailed everything with paranoia and self-loathing. I go to college and work "half shifts" or whatever they're called in english, most of my free time I spend working out, reading and training martial arts, which is btw is something I really recommend if you, like me, were bullied your entire life and abused at home and now lives with a perpetual sense of fear and insecurity.
Being a leftist proved to be really good to this transition btw, because I always have tons of things I want to read about, and if I'm low in motivation I can give political, Guevarian justifications to my lifestyle and keep that shotgun barrel out of my mouth for a little longer. Historical revolutionaries were crazy with their self-discipline too, and I start my day reading a list of passages I compiled from biographies that highlight their habits to give myself something to aspire to.
At best, my life is bland, but that's way better than being the complete trainwreck I was until last year, and although I'm still a loser I at least see a path out of it now. I'm trying to keep chaos completely out of my life, and I feel like I'm a very chaotic person by nature so it's always a struggle against myself. One little thing can make the whole system collapse and push me right back to where I was at the beginning, so I have to be careful.
Adam Ortiz
22 year old. Just finally graduated with an associates in digital media. Got a cure goth gf who I love very much. About to lose my favorite manager at the grocery store I work at, and the next one who comes in is going to take advantage of my dilligence. I make good money for it though, oddly enough.
Grayson Carter
YOU CAN DO IT COMRADE.
Mason Clark
Actually pretty well, it's exam season but I got the speaking out easy. In general, things are pretty good, haven't got laid in a bit but honestly I've done the whole one night stand thing and honestly incels, really not worth it: you just wake up the next morning with a hole or hving to kick someone out who obviously has it in their eyes too. Hold in there, I was like you once, also don't rush into sex: waking up naked with someone you care about but didn't fuck the night before is way better than what I described. Oh also, I am drinking a lot more, but not to like get drunk butnjust like a beer every day. Kinda should watch that, any anons know any good way to test liver health? But apart from that, yeah. Hoping to get a placement with a leftwing MP over the summer and work a bar on the side.
Jordan Myers
Join Marxism with Georgist characteristics gang
Eli Baker
been hitting the gym and eating more, stopped fapping, put in my 2 weeks at work and gonna travel for a month before I move into my new place. Hopefully starting a new band in September.
I love ya
I'll meet you there, user.