This, actually. I thought school was a chore and when I got the impression I could manage without putting effort into it, that's what I did. Only much later did I realize that self-discipline and work ethic is far more important than intelligence and that I basically sabotaged my own development for years.
Good, atm. Comes and goes, but I generally feel like I fit in fine with friends and coworkers and I feel like I have a healthy social life. Didn't always feel like that through puberty, but puberty is puberty I guess. Worse, as I still underperform. It's not that I don't understand the material (because it's not very hard to understand, IMO), but more that I still lack the motivation to put my best effort into it, procrastinating at every opportunity. I'm the complete opposite at work though, working my ass off regardless of curcumstances, even if the work is shitty, tedious and dangerous. Could be some undiagnosed depression at work or something. Have considered seeing a shrink, but I've been putting it off for about 2-3 years now, lol.
Brandon Reyes
Honestly at times shrinks are just money grabs. And the thing is, that they're actually not even supposed to advice you on anything.
Well, I am not sure about your emotional state, as in, the same I asked freud poster, do you have people you can speak with about things that bother you on an emotional level.
The thing with depression is, that while it can be something you are born with, it's something that is usually found very early and quickly. While you can BECOME depressed, it will never be on the same level as the former and is something you can usually go through.
Like for example I have been a terribly underperformer in the first University I tried myself at (Electronic engineering), but mostly it's because I am always overconfident that I can do everything and that really nothing can stop me (also that my work ethics sucked because, like I said I went to the absolute worst high school in my city.)
I know it's an autistic meme, but as long as you do have high confidence in yourself (not just the BE CONFIDENT MAAAN shit), you can bounce back from any shit thrown at you, either by trying harder, or moving to another subject that you excel at.
David Parker
I grew up in a mostly functional nuclear family. Family on fathers side was estranged, on the mother's side we could depend on them. All proletarians on the mothers side, artisans and shopkeeps on the other - almost like the more you live through the market the less social you become.
Easton Gray
Wasn't that originally Plato's idea? In a less gross sense.
Zachary Carter
Parents are still married after 30 years. Mom is a socdem, dad is a neoliberal. Mom's side of the family are all leftists and very, very close (mom has five siblings), dad's side are all old money reactionaries who are downright nasty people. My dad was very psychologically abusive to me as a kid; he was heavily emotionally/psychologically abused by his mother, so he took all the anger he had against his mother on to me (me being the oldest and a girl).
