Psychologists stumped!

It's external and internal. Its a feedback system.

Do you want me to patronize you, or do you want honesty?

what you're describing as your reality is a symptom of your dissociation.

These thoughts are inhibiting you from being happy and complete

you are allowing yourself to build barriers between yourself and progress…..

You're building walls between you and a productive future

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swarm_intelligence
Swarm intelligence (SI) is the collective behavior of decentralized, self-organized systems, natural or artificial. The concept is employed in work on artificial intelligence. The expression was introduced by Gerardo Beni and Jing Wang in 1989, in the context of cellular robotic systems.[1]

SI systems consist typically of a population of simple agents or boids interacting locally with one another and with their environment. The inspiration often comes from nature, especially biological systems. The agents follow very simple rules, and although there is no centralized control structure dictating how individual agents should behave, local, and to a certain degree random, interactions between such agents lead to the emergence of "intelligent" global behavior, unknown to the individual agents. Examples in natural systems of SI include ant colonies, bird flocking, animal herding, bacterial growth, fish schooling and microbial intelligence.

If there were people that were in control of this – they'd probably notice when people are getting tortured for a prolonged period of time.

Unfortunately, when I try to go out on a date with an attractive women, or if I go out to the gym, or if I try to go out to work – my head starts burning and emitting 1500+Watts of energy per foot.

I can be completely competent one second, and the second my radar starts going crazy and my head starts burning, I can barely remember where I'm at or how to talk.

Its made my life completely impossible.

Five years… for hours a day.
It electrocutes me and forces me to obey its demands.

Its burned me so bad that I bleed out my chest with every head ache.

Every doctor says I should be dead already.

My lack of happiness is because of the failure of others to just do what I ask them to do.

I mean it. I emit more than 10x the amount of energy than a solar panel does for a house. Its the sort of energy that operates a loud speaker for a stereo system in a car.

I get it every day, for hours, for years.

I don't know whose behind this but I doubt they're actually people.

Oddly enough, I have an inner core body temperature regulation issue (hypothalamus issue)

it might not be the same 'burning head' sensation you're talking about, but if I start thinking about something, suddenly my inner body temperature rises, and you could literally cook an egg on my head….

I'm not joking…..

Not at all…..

I've got to run. My son is coming over and we are going to go shopping, but I'd like to leave you with a thought or two:

You could be a great teacher because of the experience this disorder has afforded you, but not until you stabilize….

You're allowing yourself to spin…..

You know how to stabilize

You know how to manage this

Once you do, you could do great things………..

be well

Neptune