Definitely seeing your priest is a good idea, but I went through something similar a while back and it brought me to tears a few times, but through spiritual growth it has stopped being a problem. Fr. Ripperger talks about disordered minds and how they affect prayer. Bad imagination poisoning your thoughts and prayers are a result of this, and to deal with it you deal with the disorder. Sin is what causes such things mostly. Start going to confession weekly if you can, mass as much as possible, and pray your rosary. These are all things to strive for at least, I know I don't manage to go weekly, or pray a rosary daily, but I'm getting there, and these thoughts have really cleaned them selves up. Also practicing repetitive prayer was probably the most helpful for me, I never go with out the Jesus prayer.
Also thoughts of Hell is not the best way to orient your mind to get away from this. For me I remember that I need only trust in God, and he will give me what I need, exactly what I need. The thought of who I am turning away from, and what I miss out on is much more powerful than what I face should I turn away. Though that's definitely something to explore and find out what works for you.
Also, screwtape letters is a really good book about how demons try to orient your thought to fool you away from God. Might be worth reading for you.
OP here. Thank you, brothers. Might be what you said, the disordered mind. I was caked up on cartoons, anime, video games, and lewd things since teenage up to adulthood. Now, I am pulling back from those digital, ephemeral, and unreal things, and trying for language exams and interested in picking up watercolour paintings. Maybe it is the media addiction. I don’t know. Maybe it’s that plus my damaged mind plus a daemon working OT to fill its quota.
Also, thanks for the rosary suggestions though I am Orthodox. Still, thank you, brothers in Christ. And God bless you guys.
Gabriel Parker
try drinking salt water (sea salt, not refined), will create an unlivable environment for baddies
body is the vessel of the soul
Ayden Brooks
You are welcome. However, if you are are actively being attacked, the odds of repelling this on your own are slim to none. Get yourself evaluated by the right authorities before you go on your merry way. I can't stress this enough. At the worst, if you find someone holy and competent who discovers that there is no issue, that will put you at ease beyond anything anyone can post here.
Brody Sanchez
Sell all your possessions and take up your cross.
Luke Lee
If he's being harassed, I think going immediately aesthetic wouldn't be handy. He needs to deal with this problem with assistance, first. Hopefully the problem is secular in nature.
