Not bragging. Made this thread to learn to be a normal Christian as opposed to an innerly conflicted one.
Agreed! It occurred to me in an epiphany at age 16 that every particle of my subjective experience is purely the result of a higher power’s grace. Again, I am ACTUALLY trying to be a normative Christian, yet unfortunately can’t help but secretly feel morally coequal with Christ, which I DO know is heresy (I’ve even been lured by Mormonism, studied it, and deemed it heretical!). This inclination towards coequality itself makes me feel bad, and is the problem I’m trying to resolve.
Nice poetry, all of it. I do crave the good and of course of course crave it for everyone. To me it’s obvious, who wouldn’t?
I have suffered greatly. Whether that’s for the sake of God or for the sake of evilness, that’s what this thread is here to determine!
No, I wasn’t raised religious. That’s another of my obstacles to normative Christianity: my mom is utterly areligious and non-observant, yet to me, apart from the New Testament, she is my moral standard, like Christ’s surrogate in the flesh, or another Mary. So how can I feel anything when accused of not receiving communion? Remember Luke 18:9-14.
All clear (not to clear on that last point tbh…)
I covet beauty and the good, so to the extent that my neighbour possesses these things, YES. I even feel competitive with my mates when it comes to certain sophist pursuits — is that sinful? To me, no, competition is part of God’s creation (although this is an interesting Christian topic, Jesus’ view on sports and the generic desire to win)
BUT: Do I waste time cursing my neighbour for having things that I don’t have? No.
I know all that about the Trinity. My language was crude, I respect that it’s a delicate and exquisite doctrine.
I’m going to stop you there. If I agreed with you, would I have been so casual about admitting it? Lest you forget that Christ knew all of Satan’s ins and outs (as his creator) and submitted to his will in going willingly to the cross. There is an interesting parallel between God and Satan that can be and has been explored. It’s controversial, I know, but in an informal, poetic sense (the only sense I’m using) letting yourself be vulnerable to evil is possible in whilst still IN Christ, and if you disagree you aren’t thinking big enough.
But I didn’t say that?
It’s like masturbation — I don’t see the significance. LUST is self-evidently unholy, but jovial banter is not.