Need help getting back into radicalism

Save motherfucker

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Part of me thinks I have some kind of mild PTSD, just in the sense that every time I attempt to dive back into anarchism/communism I keep "hearing" my ex put me down, telling me "this is all false, if it were true I would adhere to it" (keep in mind, my ex is *very* smart actually, he's doing an MA in poli phil at the moment). I can't just snap out of it, which is killing me.

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A lot of political philosophy which is taught in mainstream unis is pretty reactionary. It's primarily Plato/Aristotle, Aquinas, classical liberals, Hegel, with very little Marx, definitely no anarchists.

You are just human being after long term relationship. The fact you are haunted by realizing his opinion on stuff like this is just temporary mind habit created simply because you spent a lot of time with him, cared for him. Happens to everyone after breakup with serious gf/bf. You need just time.

Much thanks.

How is Hegel reactionary?

Weak. It's sad how many people ITT do not firm enough ideological training

When someone you think is brilliant turns out to be a scumfuck, it does do a lot of psychological shit to you.