So, distinguish between my visions - which I have to hold as inferior to scripture - and the descriptions of Heaven in scripture?
What I'll say is that my first attempts at Christian theology were abortions. In my visions, graphene was used to make a black goo which was capable of functioning as any organ in the body - even the brain. So, when I read 1 Corinthians 15, I read what I'd seen;
I was converted to Christianity when I realized that God promises greater things than graphene - God promised all power, if only I submitted to him and humbled myself on Earth. Truly, as Justin Martyr said - and I basically have his religious background - reason leads one to Christianity;
Even before Christianity, it was obvious to me that the universe was ruled by a Father - his true identity is now revealed to me. But submittng to Christian dogma, I don't think I'm missing out on anything. God wil give me what I wanted as a magician - just for becoming his slave.
I don't have any authority to tell you whether what you saw was true or not. It sounds like you're being careful about putting too much stock in these things, and that's good, because prelest is a real threat. Also, that you came out of this experience a Christian is not necessarily proof that the original vision was not Satanic. God can turn even the actions of demons to the good.
Of what you've said, this is what most makes me feel suspicious that you're experiencing prelest. In my own experiences that I believe to have been contact with God, I didn't get the sense of being part of an elite. Instead, I felt as though God was taking away an obstacle that was keeping me from trusting in Him fully. He reached out to me out of mercy, not to set me above others, at least as I understood it.
Jaxon Wood
If anything I've said is heretical, I disown it. I have full faith that God's plan is greater than what I saw.
I uploaded the description of the last time I had such a vision (March 2017;)
It felt like the world *was* 1839 - culturally, every year beyond that had suddenly not occured.
My embracing of Christianity is tied-up with my return to 1839, mentally. It's hard to describe, but the world feels simpler - much like a NES or gameboy game. The complexity of the modern world was revealed to be madness, and I wanted to return to a prior, more primal age.
I don't use Salvia anymore, but I do crave the visions. My hope is that Christian liturgy will induce a mystical state like I felt from Salvia.
