I wish I was never born and I want to die.
Feels thread
Revelation 9:6
Saw a nice sunrise today.
Feels good
Drank some gross coffee today.
Feels bad
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Feels good
Feels bad
Most people are not, and will not ever be the Virgin Mary or St. Paul of the Cross. Talking about our hopes, triumphs, reasons for praising God, sorrows, fears, failures, etc. can be helpful as well too. Addict recovery programs are literally built around this concept.
Don't be too quick or too harsh in judgement. As it is said, you will by surprised by who ends up in Heaven or Hell. Some of those "degenerate normie masses" may just need a hand up. And all of those "real life tradcaths" still struggle with demons, sins and flaws, just like everyone else:
I'm not afraid to admit that I'm hurt and weak. I can't commit suicide, and I can't go to Heaven unless I get baptised. I am winnie the poohed. Satan is trying to keep people from baptism. I don't think I'm gonna make it.
Take heart. If you want it bad enough, God will find a way for you. Don't trust in your own strength or in that of others: trust in God. The thief on the cross was not baptized and yet God saved him.