Definitely begome, but be warned becomming a monk will only challenge you even more than what you are going through now. On top of the increased spiritual warfare you will experience demons love to harass holy men you would also be expected to perform medical tasks due to your experience in the medical field. If you are up for it and can brave the minions of the evil one, than please, begome. But please do your due diligence and learn from the experiences of other monks before you fully commit yourself to God.
Suicide isn't a sin unless you're a Catholic
Luis Harris
Dylan Jenkins
Ok Judas
Nathan Collins
How can you be this stupid
Zachary Jones
In the trials that God sends us we
must bow our head in submission,
because, if He intended to give us one
stroke, and we raise our head in rebel
lion, He will give us ten of them ;
whereas, if He designed to give us ten
strokes, and we bow our head in sub
mission, He will scarcely inflict one.
Lord, dispose of me as Thou wiliest ;
let me be tormented as much as Thou
pleasest ; I will never, on any account,
separate myself from Thee. Do with
me according to Thy good pleasure ; I
wish to draw nearer and nearer to
Thee.
~St Paul of the Cross.
Rejoice in your suffering user, because its a sign God has big plans for you.
Connor Flores
Dominic Williams
You are someone, user.